Whether 'tis Nobler in the mind to suffer (part 3)

It allows one to reflect and experience the ego which is often drowned out by its own greed, that it can control people without them knowing, until they are greeted without large quantities of sound waves that no longer travel to the ear and the vibration between the ears fades away, and leaves the ego all alone like a washed up wood from a sunken ship. As the treasure is still down deep, the ego rests above all that is real and true, and covers it with a thin layer of dust so that u no longer can see the kingdom within, and forget what is bellow. Why do peple not bother digging, they are robbed of sight and extinct of sight, that they see that layer of dust and think that’s the end, that’s the bottom there’s nothing else underneath, until one day they have a certain experience where the ego is shot down and shut down, and they get a tiny peak of what is hiding underneath. Now a lot depends on the culture and their own personality to what happens next. They may deny it ever happened as they can not explain the event, so there fore if there is no ready explanation they fear what it is and so try to suppress their true nature. Some are able to use as a stepping stone to go further down and dive into the abyss. But that is scary, and many don’t wish to push the door of fear, as they fear what there is to fear. But without confronting the fear in the dark alley down by the cinema, you will always have to skip past the street and you will never find the gold in the garbage dump, that has been with you since you first breathed air. So I spend my days skipping that one lane, for fear of the emptiness that may follow. As I shed all other fears, and break life down to its minimalist form. All that matters are the people we meet and live with. And to understand that they are just as weak and full of sin as you or any person. Or for that fact any living being just wants happiness and to be free from suffering. So it is hard to judge others when you can see your own weaknesses inside of everybody.

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That is the question (part 2)

If the great teachers were so right about this life, why not the next? Is it just me that questions all these things, surely not, but I’m sure very few talk about it openly. It’s often hard to listen to others who are so caught up in the trees they can’t see the forest. How can people think they are so right, and others so wrong??? Each day I spend trying to look for answers which may never come. I use the net like a drug to feed my addiction for information and salvation. To search for others and see who is out there. Why do people take things so personal, and make it hurt so much?? Why do people constantly complain about the same people dong the same things over and over again??? Why is it I don’t care bout Joe Blow down the road, but so many hang on everything he does or doesn’t do???? Do other people see there lives so empty and useless they must fill it with truth and lies about what others may do or don’t??? How can people keep committing the same sins over and over even when they know its wrong or hurtful?? What does it take to wake somebody up from the zombie state so that they can see money is so very empty and that time is so precious along with the people we see and meet each day??? And that our ego has so much control over us that it blinds us to the kingdom of heaven within, and makes us hurt ourselves and others. It also causes us to hold on to pain and guilt for years and years. Often I wonder why is it so hard to change, why is that after the fact, I know its wrong, but during, I cant see the pain I cause? How is that I can become so unconscious that I hurt the last people I would ever dream of hurting. This is why I now enjoy waking up early in the morning while everyone sleeps, I can sit and focus on a few things, while a tap drips in the next room, and the second hand bangs away in the corner, and the first bird wakes up yelling at every one else to get a move on. Other than that it’s as silent as it’s ever gone be. I wrongly assumed it would be a pleasant and quiet place, I couldn’t be any further from the truth. Silence here is as feared as much as being fat, avoided by most people at all costs. There is so much one can learn from not only being silent but sitting for short periods in places that are quiet.

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Do you listen?

I dont like to follow. This has been both a blessing and a curse, but always a lesson. I want my own experince, whether its "good" or "bad". You can not teach life to children. You can not pass down your experince, as the old saying goes, if only i could put an old head on young shoulders. Life is about experince, its how we learn, and its how we live remember and connect with others. But I do enjoy listening to other people, and its amazing how much people will say when you just sit and listen. So many times people i have just met tell me some really weird stuff. Stuff that I would never tell people. Yet for some reason they tell me, maybe they need to get it out, maybe people dont often listen to them. I dont know what it is. BUt quite often the stories are really sad. That people out there are suffering, and there are so few people willing to give their own time, to just be quiet and listen. Why is it that people dont enjoy listening???? I think the world would be in a lot better shape if we all had to listen to someone talk for 30min, each day.

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