WILL THE BLEEDING STOP

I’m standing on the edge of the cliff,
I’m sorry I had to leave you again,
But I know I will hold you again,
I just cant wait to hold you again,
If only I could explain,
So that you would understand,
But I cant put into words what my heart feels,
Inside is so warm, but outside so cold,
Inside is so tired, but outside so raw,
Maybe its not the words that counts,
But the ways you feel me feel you,
I’m spinning around on the inside,
So fast I cant see where I am,
Who is there to help me,
Who is there who cares,
What difference does it matter,
I can do upon which I need,
What I want needs to match,
All you need is love,
As they say nothing else matters,
Its taken years and years, and one day with you,
For me to understand, how lucky I can be,
Feel sorry for those who never will,
But I will try and do what I can,
How much better is an orchestra,
Than a single musician,
How much better is a field of roses,
Than a single petal,
Don’t be alarmed, the truth is not always pleasant,
In fact it isn’t anything but just is,
We worry about the future, because we think it may cause more suffering, but there is suffering in everything, good and bad are just judgments, based upon our own benefit, or of that of others, we all think that we have so much control, but how much control do we have, so very very little its unbelievable, its hard enough to control our own mind, let alone our bodies or what others are doing, if we all could look inside and control our own thoughts then evolution could occur instantaneously, like a switch.

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WHERE AM I GOING

Aries “The emphasis is on travel. You go to relatives and they come to you. You’ll go through money but we all do at Christmas. Unfortunately the money you spend is meant for other things- there are bills associated with the government. Contact with interstate or overseas which is normal for this time of year. Your love stars are only fair. You’re the flavour of the month with someone and they rate highly with you but that’s as far as it goes. So if you were hoping for moments of ecstasy you can just about forget it.”

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WHAT CONTROL

ah what a wonderful world we live in, its amazing how the world works, and you just need to wait for what you need, and what you want is just a bonus, its amazing when it all just fits in place, and you really don’t even have to do anything, what control do we have, I don’t even want it really, its much better when you just go with the flow, don’t try to swim against the tide, but just relax, when inside is set and calm, then the outside will follow, I know that every time I stop reading my book I end up doing some harm to some one, but then maybe I just forget, or just damn fucken lazy, “all a nigga really needs is just a little bit, not a lot baby girl just a little bit” 50 cent. The happier you are with less, the longer it will last, and the amount of stress you suffer will be so much less, so much less, there is a lesson each day, it wether we can see, understand, or use it to our advantage or that of someone else, what we want is a funny, thing thou it may not always be for out benefit, well by our limited judgment any way of the present moment, it’s a choice how you feel tis moment, don’t let others control your happiness, and don’t let the world bring you down, now i’m not in a place I enjoy, but I still have fun, and use it as best as I can, because I know soon I will be where I wanna be, and even thou it may not work or even be as I wish it to be, its still going to be better in my “life situation”, even thou I may own less now, I don’t care for such empty belongings, they cause more grief in the long run, and increase the difficultness, and time of other more beneficial projects, and when you bask in the silence you realize how useless your thought can be and how negative, useless, pain in the ass they are, bringing you down from the inside, your own mind in the end harms its own host, and I’ve seen that rich or poor, own a lot or nothing, its still so amazing the power it has, and basically they are still on the same level, and there for there growth will always be limited, and I’ve seen the power of music, and tradition with its ceremonies, I know I will always be alright and probably with a level of laziness but I will always do what I have to do, and a few that I don’t, for the benefit of the universe, I wonder if karma belongs beyond this world and runs through entwined with the whole universe, I will be alright, and I will only grow, just as long as I can keep reading, and I have to stay focused, not so much on my goals but on the inside the rest will follow if I keep the inside on check, and nothing else will matter

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