sometimes I cant help but feel that i’m just wasting my life lying here as I just work and go out on the weekends what a waste or is it a necessary platform for what is to follow for me to allow myself to develop further to survive what’s around the corner, and feel that I not only need some stability some structure and some objective, I know I need to travel and cant wait to go overseas in about six months which will be unbelievable to travel to another country to not only survive but also to interact where every day will be filled with some new experience, and people, i’m feeling nervous already just thinking about it because I know how important it will be for me, and that hopefully I will be able to help others as well, I will no longer be just waiting around for things to happen I will make them happen as I leave the comfort of the luxuries in this country and to truly live in the moment as an outsider in a new country, so exciting with so many negativities and positives to occur, I will travel with nothing but clothes and my camera, to walk each day, I don’t want any distractions such as computers, TV or such things which matter not to me or life, except for communication in these days which people seem to be coming more attached to and I want to meet new people of a different world and live how they live, to experience this is truly enlightening how can one say you know a place without living in it from day to day, this is what I need to also be able to study in an environment which is of similar beliefs to what I have become to believe are true, I know family and friends will always be there but I desperately need to travel overseas and remove myself from this deprecating environment which I have become to comfortable in, I will just take clothes, books and probably my sleeping bag, and my camera isn’t even in question, so I can escape maybe from myself, but hopefully to find myself again and to become a better person with a greater wisdom and experience of other peoples lives and what they see as normal, there food and dress, living conditions and ideas, this is what my soul is yearning for the most, I must admit that I am in a very good position to do this as I see many people around who are unable to just leave everything and go, not just because I’m young but because I have no big responsibilities, and am able to work even though it’s a shitty repetitive go no where dead end boring ass job that I cant wait to leave though it has certainly served its purpose and it does give me the freedom to do what I wish, also thanks to my parents who give a fair bit of freedom and have allowed me to pursue, and also encourage, and knowing before I know what it is before I know, but never holding my hand but just by showing the door, which has also allowed me to fall and rise, but most importantly grow in a full circle, which one is unable to do if receiving to much of one or the other which is always the case with all that grows and lives, in six months I cant wait to be able to live in a another country its so damn exciting
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