30 September 2003 12:48 AM

Another chapter closed, for the best with lessons learned and experiences experienced, an integral part of human existence, emotions, with out them we are unable to function in this world, and yet they cause such difficulties, and pain, but with pain comes happiness, and hopefully something learned. For the whole time I had doubts and new that in the back of my mind it just wouldn’t work, and yet I still lied and denied the facts and for what, when you give everything of yourself to another what is true and what is false, for you cant have one without the other, but they seem so close and related that how can you distinguish them enough, which is which, its worth reading that book again, even though you know how its going to end you still just want to take the ride just for the heck of it, cause its always more exciting when there is someone else to laugh along with, and a lot easier to deal with when there is someone beside you, ultimately we are all striving for the same timeless emptiness which funny enough can only be filled by one self, satisfaction, no matter who comes along, what happens who dies and who lives, each events repercussions are entirely up to the individuals own experience which could be good or bad, and time only exists because of human endeavour which can lead to the most amazing achievements of joy and happiness or such destruction and pain. Who can say what is right or wrong, in a state of such confusion with many emotions consuming my flesh why didn’t the train come earlier, or why did I keep lying to myself, what is it that I’m looking for, how do you know what you need when you don’t even know what is needed, what heals what one cannot describe or diagnose

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