Who’s going to take care of my blog if I die tomorrow, who will be left to ramble on and annoy others, will it be deleted, will people still come to laugh and cry, and be angered, will people even know that I’m gone, if I die tomorrow how long will it last, how long will my blog survive, can it make it on its own, who’s going to be there when it needs a hand, how will it cope if someone is mean to it, who will be there to protect and guide, who will be there to review, abuse and renew.
LOVE IS ALL WE NEED, CONCENTRATION AND ENERGY ALL WE HAVE.............MAY ALL BEINGS BE HAPPY, MAY ALL BEINGS BE HEALED AND HEALTHY, MAY ALL BEINGS BE FREE FROM HARM AND SUFFERING, MAY ALL BEINGS BE AWAKENED AND LIBERATED, MAY ALL BEINGS ENJOY INNER PEACE AND EASE, MAY THERE BE PEACE IN THIS WORLD AND THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE.............MAN IS THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL, ONLY THROUGH THE MIND CAN EVIL SURVIVE.............
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Saturday, April 29, 2006
DID YOU LIE TO ME
I am so tired every part of me just wants to lay down and sleep oh how I weep just to sleep a bit, if only I could trade my food for my sleep then I could eat all day at work and never have to sleep, and I would never fall into a heap just lay down the cobwebs and I still wont weep, why do you work so hard what is it that you really need, and the rest can just be a dream for while you sleep you can have everything you want for free, and that house cant travel with you how many rooms do you need you can only be in one at any one time, is one enough or do you need one for every day then one for all the days you cant sleep, oh how I weep for all you who work all day for no reason but to live a dream you can never live, and why do you need so many different clothes and shoes, why do you want such a big car and house, and so much jewelry, why why why, I don’t understand, what is the point of getting drunk each weekend, do you really want to prevent the present moment from presenting itself to you, if only you could see how much the suffering would disappear and you can see that its your only savior, your only god, don’t be fooled, you have already sold your soul to the advertising companies and you don’t even know it, so so sad, you’ve fallen for their “cool” ads, pop fashion, flashy cars, why waste your time wasting your money, free yourself, travel, just let go of what they have told you, its all based upon their own fears they just want to keep you down because their afraid to be alone, they have to belittle you how else can they control your thoughts, how else can they drain your energy, how else can they feel better, by MAKING YOU FEEL LESS THAN WHAT YOU TRULY ARE INSIDE, but alas I have prayed for you all for years and years and I will never lay down my vigil, I pray for your freedom, I hope you will join me soon, I will never stop praying until you all are free
Thursday, April 20, 2006
I JUST LOVE ART
I find it very heartbreaking that so many people limit themselves to such restricted areas in this world, specifically the arts, and I don’t understand why so many people limit themselves to one or two genres of music, film, or books, when there is such a diverse range these days of great quality in all areas of the arts. Music is one of the rare experiences one can indulge in that spans all religions races and cultures, and there are so many forms of expression these days yet so many people limit themselves because of their own ignorance and prejudices, how can you ever expand your mind if you listen to the same music, or watch the same movies, or read the same books for your whole life. Wisdom comes with expansion, and with that new experiences must be sought out, we must continue to push ourselves from with in and search for new horizons, we must find new music to listen to, new movies to watch, and new books to read, and we must travel as far as we can not only physically but mentally. We should be thankful for those who push the boundaries of our everyday thinking, because without these individuals we would still be stuck in ice age, fending for ourselves with spears and clubs, so let go of your prejudices and ignorance and read, listen, and watch more than you ever had, don’t limit yourself to one particular genre, how can you expect to grow as an individual if always listen to the same music for your whole life.
JUDGE LEST YE BE JUDGED
May he who is without sin judge me, may he who knows all judge those who don’t, may he who is without love begin to love thy self, nay he who has more than enough give to those who don’t. Go ahead and judge me, or the world around you, may you judge the people you live with, may you judge the ones you love and that love you, may you judge those who are famous and those who are infamous, may you judge the person next to you because their cloths are dirty, or those who don’t understand, but before you do. First think about how much suffering your judgment causes, and that it is all just to make yourself feel better, remember your judgment is your own selfish need to be better than the rest, whether you agree or disagree, like or dislike. But each time you judge think about why? Think for just a moment, let go of your own selfishness and just love one another, think about someone else’s feelings for a second, and ask how can I make this person, this being who only wishes to be happy, what it is they need to be happy? So go and judge me if it makes you feel better, i dont mind because I know where it comes from, and how it arises, but its never necessary so why bother
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
PAIN, WHAT PAIN
Pain, what is pain, have you ever really thought of it, have you ever caused yourself pain and truly felt and gone with it, experienced it, most people don’t even want to think about it let alone wish for it. Only the mind knows pain, your arms, your legs or any part upon or within your body knows what pain is. All the human body knows is anomalies, disruptions, and interruptions, which can be caused by many different causes heat, cold, pressure and even being severed, but the body only knows these through chemical reactions and electrical pulses, all it communicates is that the body is in danger that is all, that a circuit in the body has been disturbed. If you burn your arm or cut your leg, your arm doesn’t know pain, your leg doesn’t know pain, it only exists in the arm, in the leg as danger, awareness that this may be dangerous to the overall wellbeing of the individual.
The mind is where pain is born and where it resides, and it’s where it has existed for all time. The mind creates it because it thrives upon it because it can use it against you to defeat yourself. It brings up the pain whenever it know you are weak, and reminds you of what can go wrong, and the suffering that you will incur.But there is hope, you can control this pain, if you make the choice, that all it comes down to, a choice to run, which the mind expects because it doesn’t want to discover its true nature, and the state which you can reach. So stop running and just be still, experience the pain learn from it, and experience how it works on your own mind, how it affects you. Physical pain is the easiest to do this with because the causes are obvious and may times can be seen, and you know exactly when it happened, and how. Though the pain that exists because of emotions, expectations, worry, living outside the moment, depression, anxiety, the causes of these, and many more are not always as well known, and can be very intricate and be the result of years of the minds control, and others. This takes a lot more practice and investigation, and take years to resolve, but never forget happiness exists everywhere in this world, and only because people choose it that is all, the difference is choice, what will yours be?
The mind is where pain is born and where it resides, and it’s where it has existed for all time. The mind creates it because it thrives upon it because it can use it against you to defeat yourself. It brings up the pain whenever it know you are weak, and reminds you of what can go wrong, and the suffering that you will incur.But there is hope, you can control this pain, if you make the choice, that all it comes down to, a choice to run, which the mind expects because it doesn’t want to discover its true nature, and the state which you can reach. So stop running and just be still, experience the pain learn from it, and experience how it works on your own mind, how it affects you. Physical pain is the easiest to do this with because the causes are obvious and may times can be seen, and you know exactly when it happened, and how. Though the pain that exists because of emotions, expectations, worry, living outside the moment, depression, anxiety, the causes of these, and many more are not always as well known, and can be very intricate and be the result of years of the minds control, and others. This takes a lot more practice and investigation, and take years to resolve, but never forget happiness exists everywhere in this world, and only because people choose it that is all, the difference is choice, what will yours be?
EMOTIONS, NOTHING MORE THAN A BLINDING LIGHT, A THICK FOG
“Emotion: The body’s reaction to your mind”
Eckhart Tolle
I know this may upset people, and for that I am sorry, but the truth is what it is, whether you agree with it or not, it is not there to be judged.
Emotions can cause so much suffering, don’t be a fool and allow them to control you, you have to control them, only the foolish are guided by emotions, and one should act from a state of love, the ego-less love, the divine love, it is not an emotion but a way of being, a state that permeates all life and never causes harm, it is beyond any word but unfortunately that’s all we have, it can only be experienced.
It truly breaks my heart to see so many people suffering because of that voice inside their own selves and see how much pain it causes them and those around them, if only we could communicate so honestly with each other, with out having to worry how someone is going to feel, if only people could see themselves and each other as we truly are and not how every one wishes they were, not every one is smart, nor strong, though we like to think that we are, so many people these days have big homes and large bank accounts, and yet they are so poor and lonely inside. If we could all communicate from that universal point in which all beings understand, even animals experience primitive, simple emotions living in the moment, and have only a basic understanding of there surroundings and there place in the world, and yet individuals in the past who have been in touch with the eternal, are able to tame the most frightened and aggressive animals, which is far beyond the current capabilities of so many humans because they think that they are above these animals for some reason, there is no other species upon this world that has caused so much suffering to its own kind and to others, what other animal kills out of greed, or pride, sometimes I find it so disgusting too see how so many humans act toward each other, and other beings. All beings wish for happiness and we are all components of the earth, the human body is not beautiful or ugly, it just is, a vehicle for life, do you think your arm feels love or anger, does your leg feel jealousy or fear, do your pets limbs feel hunger or hope, our body is made from the same matter as the trees and ants, and even your own computer, your fingers don’t feel depressed or shame, there just skin and bone, mostly water, why are you so attached to a bit of skin and water, do the leaves feel hate, does your hair feel afraid, all emotions are a product of a judging ego that’s all, you are not anger you are not happiness, you are caught in a cage you cant control, or even see. There are many paths to the eternal, just as long as you follow them honestly, and are honest with yourself.
Eckhart Tolle
I know this may upset people, and for that I am sorry, but the truth is what it is, whether you agree with it or not, it is not there to be judged.
Emotions can cause so much suffering, don’t be a fool and allow them to control you, you have to control them, only the foolish are guided by emotions, and one should act from a state of love, the ego-less love, the divine love, it is not an emotion but a way of being, a state that permeates all life and never causes harm, it is beyond any word but unfortunately that’s all we have, it can only be experienced.
It truly breaks my heart to see so many people suffering because of that voice inside their own selves and see how much pain it causes them and those around them, if only we could communicate so honestly with each other, with out having to worry how someone is going to feel, if only people could see themselves and each other as we truly are and not how every one wishes they were, not every one is smart, nor strong, though we like to think that we are, so many people these days have big homes and large bank accounts, and yet they are so poor and lonely inside. If we could all communicate from that universal point in which all beings understand, even animals experience primitive, simple emotions living in the moment, and have only a basic understanding of there surroundings and there place in the world, and yet individuals in the past who have been in touch with the eternal, are able to tame the most frightened and aggressive animals, which is far beyond the current capabilities of so many humans because they think that they are above these animals for some reason, there is no other species upon this world that has caused so much suffering to its own kind and to others, what other animal kills out of greed, or pride, sometimes I find it so disgusting too see how so many humans act toward each other, and other beings. All beings wish for happiness and we are all components of the earth, the human body is not beautiful or ugly, it just is, a vehicle for life, do you think your arm feels love or anger, does your leg feel jealousy or fear, do your pets limbs feel hunger or hope, our body is made from the same matter as the trees and ants, and even your own computer, your fingers don’t feel depressed or shame, there just skin and bone, mostly water, why are you so attached to a bit of skin and water, do the leaves feel hate, does your hair feel afraid, all emotions are a product of a judging ego that’s all, you are not anger you are not happiness, you are caught in a cage you cant control, or even see. There are many paths to the eternal, just as long as you follow them honestly, and are honest with yourself.
Thursday, April 13, 2006
HOW DO THEY KNOW
ARIES- you are close to something important. The imminent Full Moon in your opposite sign is concentrating your mind and sharpening, too, the focus of events in the world around you. One big issue is taking up your time. The more you think about it, the more food for thought you find within it. You are growing concerned and anxious about the future of a particular arrangement- yet the problem you face is no greater than many you have successfully conquered in the past. Ahead lies triumph, not a disaster.
(how can they know whats going on in my life without even talking to me, amazed)
(how can they know whats going on in my life without even talking to me, amazed)
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
SPACE AND TIME, NO MATTER I KNOW YOUR MINE
Slipping through the clouds,
What was it you said that day?
You know you can’t hear anything,
Down hear anyway,
What’s the time?
I thought you said it was early,
But it was already dark
Or did you mean that yesterday,
You wanted to meet late tomorrow,
While the sun is waking in the park,
And the clouds are moving into next week,
I’m feeling so weak,
You said that you didn’t care,
Now I know your lying,
Or was I lying,
Or was I lying when you said what I said,
That I wouldn’t dare,
Don’t believe a liar,
When a liar knows what a liar knows,
That a liar doesn’t know,
Can I borrow some wisdom?
I don’t even know what wisdom is,
I know I can’t hold it in my hand,
I could really do with some wisdom now,
But all I’ve got is me and myself,
And where both as confused as each other,
But don’t bother its not the first time for us,
And every thing has turned out all right,
Your still here I hope,
But I know I saw you crying,
And it wasn’t because you were happy to see me,
But do you believe when liars mix with liars,
And they’re both scared and afraid,
It doesn’t matter any more what was said,
I wish I could read the stars in your eyes,
The galaxies in your dreams,
Do any of them include us?
Cause there ain’t no me without you,
Sleeping again at work,
Or was I dreaming that I was at work working,
Working hard but that doesn’t seem right,
I don’t work at night,
Who am I kidding?
At night I don’t even work
This is not my sight,
When did your dreams become mine?
When did our fears join?
Was it when I said I do?
Or was it when I first met you,
Did the water wash away your hope to?
Or was it when the water left,
And left behind our love,
Did it happen when you were at school,
Or was it before,
I know when I saw your face you were crying,
And said that you loved me,
I tried to touch your face,
But I couldn’t move,
What’s that burning?
Hey wait a minute what’s that light,
I tried to scream that I promised to promise,
That I would take care of you again,
Did you hear were you even listening?
Communication was never my best trait,
Were you just waiting till I came by,
The clouds look the same as before in a dream I had,
Floating through your soul,
The smoke led me back to were I had to go,
What’s the date I think I missed your birthday,
What do you…..,
That’s not it what do you mean,
That’s when your dream started,
You didn’t tell me about that dream,
I know was only three,
I didn’t know you then,
There wasn’t any grass or trees here,
I planted them that day,
But I didn’t tell anyone,
I just waited here because I knew this is the only place,
I would ever be fixed,
I didn’t know it needed mending,
I know but my mended heart was fixed,
When your heart walked into my garden,
And was mended by the grass and trees,
I planted so long ago,
My heart didn’t need mending,
Ha ha you foolish man,
Of course you didn’t know,
A drop of rain doesn’t know it’s falling,
It just keeps falling until it’s caught,
Now I’ve caught you again and again,
I will catch you when you are falling,
So be free this is your destiny,
To fall and is all you know,
And it’s mine to know when you are falling,
What was it you said that day?
You know you can’t hear anything,
Down hear anyway,
What’s the time?
I thought you said it was early,
But it was already dark
Or did you mean that yesterday,
You wanted to meet late tomorrow,
While the sun is waking in the park,
And the clouds are moving into next week,
I’m feeling so weak,
You said that you didn’t care,
Now I know your lying,
Or was I lying,
Or was I lying when you said what I said,
That I wouldn’t dare,
Don’t believe a liar,
When a liar knows what a liar knows,
That a liar doesn’t know,
Can I borrow some wisdom?
I don’t even know what wisdom is,
I know I can’t hold it in my hand,
I could really do with some wisdom now,
But all I’ve got is me and myself,
And where both as confused as each other,
But don’t bother its not the first time for us,
And every thing has turned out all right,
Your still here I hope,
But I know I saw you crying,
And it wasn’t because you were happy to see me,
But do you believe when liars mix with liars,
And they’re both scared and afraid,
It doesn’t matter any more what was said,
I wish I could read the stars in your eyes,
The galaxies in your dreams,
Do any of them include us?
Cause there ain’t no me without you,
Sleeping again at work,
Or was I dreaming that I was at work working,
Working hard but that doesn’t seem right,
I don’t work at night,
Who am I kidding?
At night I don’t even work
This is not my sight,
When did your dreams become mine?
When did our fears join?
Was it when I said I do?
Or was it when I first met you,
Did the water wash away your hope to?
Or was it when the water left,
And left behind our love,
Did it happen when you were at school,
Or was it before,
I know when I saw your face you were crying,
And said that you loved me,
I tried to touch your face,
But I couldn’t move,
What’s that burning?
Hey wait a minute what’s that light,
I tried to scream that I promised to promise,
That I would take care of you again,
Did you hear were you even listening?
Communication was never my best trait,
Were you just waiting till I came by,
The clouds look the same as before in a dream I had,
Floating through your soul,
The smoke led me back to were I had to go,
What’s the date I think I missed your birthday,
What do you…..,
That’s not it what do you mean,
That’s when your dream started,
You didn’t tell me about that dream,
I know was only three,
I didn’t know you then,
There wasn’t any grass or trees here,
I planted them that day,
But I didn’t tell anyone,
I just waited here because I knew this is the only place,
I would ever be fixed,
I didn’t know it needed mending,
I know but my mended heart was fixed,
When your heart walked into my garden,
And was mended by the grass and trees,
I planted so long ago,
My heart didn’t need mending,
Ha ha you foolish man,
Of course you didn’t know,
A drop of rain doesn’t know it’s falling,
It just keeps falling until it’s caught,
Now I’ve caught you again and again,
I will catch you when you are falling,
So be free this is your destiny,
To fall and is all you know,
And it’s mine to know when you are falling,
So I can catch you again to water my garden.
Monday, April 10, 2006
WORDS OF WISDOM, TRUST ME THERE NOT MINE
"There is nothing in this world that is not subject to change or transformation. It is foolish to run from the world as to run after the world, both extremes having their root in illusion that the world is seperate from ourselves."
Lama Anagarika Govinda
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"If good does not accumulate, it is not enough to make a name for a man. If evil does not accumulate, it is not strong enough to destoy a man. Therefore the inferior man thinks to himself, "Goodness in small things has no value, " and so neglects it. He thinks, "Small sins do no harm," and does not give them up. Thus his sins accumulate until they can no longer be covered up, and his guilt becomes so great that it can no longer be wiped out. In the Book of Changes it is said: "His neck is fastened in the wooden cangue, so that his ears disappear. Misfortune."
The I Ching
Saturday, April 08, 2006
ONE HELL OF A SAMVEGA
I came to you at my weakest blinded by my own suffering,
Confused and lost in my own fear never had I been falling,
So far from the light my samvega flash,
Couldn’t have come any sooner or left a deeper gash,
Left me desperate and weak there were only two choices,
Of which there was no return but I had to stop the voices,
Otherwise I wouldn’t be here today with you all,
So I had to pick myself up out of this state and make that call,
Get in my car and drive, drive and drive through the panic I had to weave.
I’d had enough of the sleepless, dinnerless days I had to leave,
No direction again until I landed upon your garden,
So serene it was small and not that beautiful my mind had been hardened,
But it was beautiful to be in any way without any sense of what to say
It didn’t matter you already knew what had to be done and since that day,
I have never strayed from the path though some parts took a little longer,
Than was necessary but now I know what needs to be done I’m so much stronger,
My sorrow now turns to you, who have a different view,
And all those who are still confused and lost,
But I know soon you to will know the path there is no cost,
If you ask I will hold your hand,
Or even the other side of the world I will stand,
What ever you ask what ever you need,
Will be done if you ask to sow the seed,
That will be the only step you have to take alone,
The rest can be as much a party as you wish or alone on the phone
Confused and lost in my own fear never had I been falling,
So far from the light my samvega flash,
Couldn’t have come any sooner or left a deeper gash,
Left me desperate and weak there were only two choices,
Of which there was no return but I had to stop the voices,
Otherwise I wouldn’t be here today with you all,
So I had to pick myself up out of this state and make that call,
Get in my car and drive, drive and drive through the panic I had to weave.
I’d had enough of the sleepless, dinnerless days I had to leave,
No direction again until I landed upon your garden,
So serene it was small and not that beautiful my mind had been hardened,
But it was beautiful to be in any way without any sense of what to say
It didn’t matter you already knew what had to be done and since that day,
I have never strayed from the path though some parts took a little longer,
Than was necessary but now I know what needs to be done I’m so much stronger,
My sorrow now turns to you, who have a different view,
And all those who are still confused and lost,
But I know soon you to will know the path there is no cost,
If you ask I will hold your hand,
Or even the other side of the world I will stand,
What ever you ask what ever you need,
Will be done if you ask to sow the seed,
That will be the only step you have to take alone,
The rest can be as much a party as you wish or alone on the phone
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JUST WAIT AND SEE
I know you’ve got your doubts baby, but I promise you don’t have to worry,
It’s been some time, and there’s a little more to go and for that I’m sorry,
But I’m tired of talking and people telling me what I can’t do,
I’m just going to go by and do what I have to,
As soon as I made up my mind, there was never any doubt soon you will see
Soon you will all see that it was all meant to be,
You’ve opened a door that’s shaken me to my core,
My heart is aching like never before,
Nothing else matters until I’m back in our home place,
Till there’s no space between us and all I can see is your face,
As soon as I made up my mind, there was never any doubt soon you will see
Soon you will all see that it was all meant to be,
Never wanna see you cry or will I again leave your side,
I can’t explain what I feel inside but I can no longer hide,
I finally know what I want to do and it feels so right,
Everything will be all right no matter how big the storm during the night,
As soon as I made up my mind, there was never any doubt soon you will see
Soon you will all see that it was all meant to be,
It’s been some time, and there’s a little more to go and for that I’m sorry,
But I’m tired of talking and people telling me what I can’t do,
I’m just going to go by and do what I have to,
As soon as I made up my mind, there was never any doubt soon you will see
Soon you will all see that it was all meant to be,
You’ve opened a door that’s shaken me to my core,
My heart is aching like never before,
Nothing else matters until I’m back in our home place,
Till there’s no space between us and all I can see is your face,
As soon as I made up my mind, there was never any doubt soon you will see
Soon you will all see that it was all meant to be,
Never wanna see you cry or will I again leave your side,
I can’t explain what I feel inside but I can no longer hide,
I finally know what I want to do and it feels so right,
Everything will be all right no matter how big the storm during the night,
As soon as I made up my mind, there was never any doubt soon you will see
Soon you will all see that it was all meant to be,
Thursday, April 06, 2006
MY MIND ALONE
Why do so many partners want there partner to know what they are thinking, I couldn’t think of anything worse, I never want to know what my partner is thinking, or is it just me, but half the fun we have together is guessing and being constantly wrong and amused by how far off we are at what the other had upon there mind, I couldn’t think of anything more boring, and I don’t mean that to offend any at all, but can someone explain this notion to me, is it cultural, does it arise from fear, or the need to know that someone thinks the same as yourself, is it comforting, or is more to do with reliability, the ability to predict, I’m trying here, …………………………………………please
TRUTH BE KNOWN
Truth doesn’t exist in a book or in any word written or spoken or otherwise, the word itself is empty, a number of symbols, which represent a mental construct, it can not be expressed or passed on by communication or physical touch it must be experienced by the individual alone, people can only direct you, guide, lead, a person so that they can discover it for themselves, you can not make somebody understand or even learn what they don’t want to, or even understand, even the wisest soul upon this planet can not make another soul know the truth, but he or she would be extremely good at showing the way. Which is different to knowing things about truth, which is not the same as the actual truth itself. The truth of the universe I speak of cannot be spoken of, but all I can do is chip away at a stone to reveal the truth that exists within us all, but only can the individual, reveal the truth for them self. For one thing you wont experience it in this blog or any other, or anywhere on the internet, all you will find are “road signs” that will lead you down a path that could lead you any where, but step out into the “world”, and you can see it every where you look, (I don’t recommend you do it in a city if that’s where you live), though many people have not trained their mind enough to experience it. Only when the mind is really quiet, and I mean really really quiet, to the point where all those thoughts we have each moment of our waking and possibly sleeping life, that never seem to cease, begin to cease, and in the beginning it will be hard to notice but the more and more you try, the longer and longer the gap between each thought will get, and in between those thoughts you will be able to experience life for what it is, without ego, without judgment, without like or dislike, and that’s where you will also experience an ecstasy of happiness far beyond any drug you can find, and you will find your being come into line at the same level of vibration as energy itself. The path is not easy cannot be found with knowledge alone, but an equal amount of practice as well, they are both “different ends of the same stick” as the great and late Ajahn Chah would say. Knowledge and practice are both sides of the same coin, useless on their own, but boundless when joined together.
"Sitting quietly, doing nothing, spring comes, and the grass grows by itself",
ZEN saying
"Sitting quietly, doing nothing, spring comes, and the grass grows by itself",
ZEN saying
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
MY HEART, MY PROMISE
The six senses of my being wish to communicate to you,
........................But what difference does it make if I don’t do what I promised,
If only you could hear what my heart wants you to hear,
.........................But it doesn’t use a language that anyone understands.
If only you could feel what my heart wants you to feel,
..........................But you would never come back down to earth.
If only you could see what my heart wants you to see,
..........................But the light would blind you forever.
If only you could taste what my heart wants you to taste,
..........................But everything else would never taste the same.
If only you could touch what my heart wants you to touch,
..........................But your skin would always feel cold.
If only you could smell what my heart want you to smell,
...........................But then roses would never smell as sweet.
........................But what difference does it make if I don’t do what I promised,
If only you could hear what my heart wants you to hear,
.........................But it doesn’t use a language that anyone understands.
If only you could feel what my heart wants you to feel,
..........................But you would never come back down to earth.
If only you could see what my heart wants you to see,
..........................But the light would blind you forever.
If only you could taste what my heart wants you to taste,
..........................But everything else would never taste the same.
If only you could touch what my heart wants you to touch,
..........................But your skin would always feel cold.
If only you could smell what my heart want you to smell,
...........................But then roses would never smell as sweet.
WHATS THE DEAL
Why is it that doctors and other medical professionals who save lives and religious members of our community who save our souls get paid pittance compared to actors, sportsmen/women and singers who do nothing but entertain and take us away from the present moment?
Why do people spend so much money making movies, building cars that travel far faster than they have to, and missiles and planes while they cant even feed there own people, or supply simple medicine to those who are suffering.
The cost it takes to produce a movie these days could feed a small country for a whole year, not to mention the amount of food in which we waste each day, because of “economic reasons”.
When will it be enough, how much money do banks and other global organizations have to make each year before they will take care of their own employees who actually run the company, I don’t know of other countries but I know in Australia the banks have become disgusting in the way they treat their employees and customers, as they try to squeeze out as much money as they can from people who are struggling as it is, yet they still keep sacking people and increasing fees, as there services decrease, and peoples frustration increases.
Why do people spend so much money making movies, building cars that travel far faster than they have to, and missiles and planes while they cant even feed there own people, or supply simple medicine to those who are suffering.
The cost it takes to produce a movie these days could feed a small country for a whole year, not to mention the amount of food in which we waste each day, because of “economic reasons”.
When will it be enough, how much money do banks and other global organizations have to make each year before they will take care of their own employees who actually run the company, I don’t know of other countries but I know in Australia the banks have become disgusting in the way they treat their employees and customers, as they try to squeeze out as much money as they can from people who are struggling as it is, yet they still keep sacking people and increasing fees, as there services decrease, and peoples frustration increases.
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
WHAT ARE YOU REALLY LOOKING FOR
this is my new theory, (and i know there is no arguement), hair upon a mans head is as important as medium to large size breasts are for a women (and yet both are empty and meaningless, though one does serve a purpose regardless of there size) to their own self esteem, now for both sides of this issues those who wish to have what they dont, and a society that constantly perpetuates a fact of life that doesnt exist, hello were human beings where not supposed to look the same, dont you listen to Groove Armada ha ha ha.
1.--if a person doesnt like you due to the lack of your hair/breasts why would you want anything to do with them. speaking from experince i actually shaved my head for over 2 years completely to the skin, and found no difference between my interaction with people or my own self esteem, for the other ive never had implants so i can not speak of such an experince, quite frankily men i think your weak and know its all in your head, as i may suggest it is also may be for women, though of course i cant speak of such an experince.
2.-- the other side which i have many issues with is society, and this constant perception built by society and advertising agencies, that we should look a certain way and if dont we are somehow inadequate, or lacking in some way, or even worse not "cool", and i know all societies/ cultures have there idea of beauty, but true beauty has nothing to do with a few strands of hair or a couple of handfuls of silcone, doesnt any one else find such gains empty and nothing but increased suffering for no reason what so ever, now doesnt that sound completely insane, words are empty, but i know they can hurt for a long long time, but only if you allow them to, dont let others or society, or even fucking worse advertising companies tell you what is or isnt beautiful, look into your heart and you will see that all things are created beautiful the day they are born, so you have nothing to worry about, youre just fine as you are so relax and enjoy life, its to short to be worring about how much or little you have of something, just live.
1.--if a person doesnt like you due to the lack of your hair/breasts why would you want anything to do with them. speaking from experince i actually shaved my head for over 2 years completely to the skin, and found no difference between my interaction with people or my own self esteem, for the other ive never had implants so i can not speak of such an experince, quite frankily men i think your weak and know its all in your head, as i may suggest it is also may be for women, though of course i cant speak of such an experince.
2.-- the other side which i have many issues with is society, and this constant perception built by society and advertising agencies, that we should look a certain way and if dont we are somehow inadequate, or lacking in some way, or even worse not "cool", and i know all societies/ cultures have there idea of beauty, but true beauty has nothing to do with a few strands of hair or a couple of handfuls of silcone, doesnt any one else find such gains empty and nothing but increased suffering for no reason what so ever, now doesnt that sound completely insane, words are empty, but i know they can hurt for a long long time, but only if you allow them to, dont let others or society, or even fucking worse advertising companies tell you what is or isnt beautiful, look into your heart and you will see that all things are created beautiful the day they are born, so you have nothing to worry about, youre just fine as you are so relax and enjoy life, its to short to be worring about how much or little you have of something, just live.
I know this may sound hypocritical
i know with all this ranting and raving i carry on with each day or so, could also be seen as another whinging westerner, but i am hoping that these empty words may push people to question their environment, to look into their hearts, and to challenege society, and investigate what people tell them, too many people take for granted what they hear and see as truth without investigating for themselves, why?, please explain, i take nothing for granted and believe there are more opinions out there than facts, i only want the facts people, only love matters you can keep the rest, thank you i'll stop whinging now
OPEN YOUR EYES
CANT YOU ALL SEE THAT WERE KILLING OURSELVES, FOR ALL OF EXISTANCE WE'VE DONE NOTHING BUT CHEAT, KILL, MAIME, STEAL, LIE, ABUSE, AND DRUG EACH OTHER BECAUSE WE HAVE BEEN UNABLE TO LOVE OURSELVES, AND BECAUSE OF OUR OWN JEALOUSY, RAGE, AND SELFISHNESS WE ARE UNABLE TO FORGIVE,..............................................................PLEASE JUST LET IT GO, WHAT EVER HAS HAPPENED IN YOUR LIFE LET IT GO AND SET YOURSELF FREE, DO WHAT EVER YOU HAVE TO, WETHER IT BE CRY OR SPEND SOMETIME ALONE IN A MONESTRY, TAKE A DEEP BREATHE IN......................................................................................, HOLD IT FOR A MOMENT.....................................................AND JUST LET IT OUT AND RELAX YOUR WHOLE BODY................................YOUR HEART IS TIRED OF THE PAIN IT WANTS TO BE FREE, PLEASE LET IT BE FREE..........................................PLEASE, THIS IS MY ONE WISH
REALIZE YOUR TRUE SELF I DONT CARE WHAT YOU CALL IT LOVE ENERGY GOD< JUST HURRY UP>
WARNING CONTAINS EXPLICIT LANGUAGE AND ADULT THEMES
So much of the shit we go through each fucking day is such a fucking waste of time, yet people keep going through the pain because they are too afraid to deal with the present moment and to stand up for themselves and take fucking control of their own life and mental state, rather disappointing, what difference will it make how big your car or house is when you die, how many hours you work in a week, what benefit to the world is a fast car, a large TV, a loud stereo, why does a large TV or even owning a TV bring you happiness, why does sitting in a cafe for hours on end bring you happiness, why are people so afraid of spending time alone with there own mind, why do so many people spend so much fucking time in a bar talking shit and killing brain cells, if you die tomorrow and have spent twenty years paying for your house and working the same job what have you gotten out of life, and what difference have you made on the world, please people wake up and smell the coffee as they say, its not even going to bring you lasting happiness, why is it that the poorest countries are far happier than any of the “first worlds”, and I cant wait till I get old, why would a fifty year old want to look like a twenty year old, something very very wrong with society, especially westerns seeing as most eastern women accentuate there age, I’m looking forward to the day when I can look in the mirror and see wrinkles upon my face, hopefully there is a small amount of wisdom and experience that comes along with the years that it takes for the skin upon my face to loose its “elasticity”, we need to forget about tomorrow as we have yesterday and wake from our sleeping lives as we realize we are nothing more than machines that fuel a system of negativity, that sucks away our energy, and the love that each being is able to achieve, it feeds upon, and feeds us a false reality, where they tell us what we want, and what will make us happy, fucken hell people can you for once fucken take a look at your life and ask yourself what you really really want, will that TV make you happy, will deodorant really get you a partner, and women I guarantee your hair colour or lipstick has nothing to do with finding a partner, the system has turned us into consumers of crap we don’t need, how much shit in your home do you even need, go on take a fucken look around and see how much time you have spent working to pay for things you don’t even use, don’t even need, and shit that wont make you any more happier than playing in the dirt and at least that is free, the best things in life are free, FOR FUCK SAKE PEOPLE HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN, what are you doing with your life that you need to work for so long, or so hard, please for once in your life take a moment and listen to your heart and ask yourself what it is you want, and I want to know what are you waiting for, why do so many people have to come so close to death to really start living, maybe if I put everybody in a life and death situation, where they have lost all control, they might wake up, now that would be a fucken TV show that I might actually watch, people finally realizing what life is about and not what NIKE, COCO COLA, LEVIS, Lancôme, or some pop star tells us, what life is about, the closer you get to death the more you will know life
So much of the shit we go through each fucking day is such a fucking waste of time, yet people keep going through the pain because they are too afraid to deal with the present moment and to stand up for themselves and take fucking control of their own life and mental state, rather disappointing, what difference will it make how big your car or house is when you die, how many hours you work in a week, what benefit to the world is a fast car, a large TV, a loud stereo, why does a large TV or even owning a TV bring you happiness, why does sitting in a cafe for hours on end bring you happiness, why are people so afraid of spending time alone with there own mind, why do so many people spend so much fucking time in a bar talking shit and killing brain cells, if you die tomorrow and have spent twenty years paying for your house and working the same job what have you gotten out of life, and what difference have you made on the world, please people wake up and smell the coffee as they say, its not even going to bring you lasting happiness, why is it that the poorest countries are far happier than any of the “first worlds”, and I cant wait till I get old, why would a fifty year old want to look like a twenty year old, something very very wrong with society, especially westerns seeing as most eastern women accentuate there age, I’m looking forward to the day when I can look in the mirror and see wrinkles upon my face, hopefully there is a small amount of wisdom and experience that comes along with the years that it takes for the skin upon my face to loose its “elasticity”, we need to forget about tomorrow as we have yesterday and wake from our sleeping lives as we realize we are nothing more than machines that fuel a system of negativity, that sucks away our energy, and the love that each being is able to achieve, it feeds upon, and feeds us a false reality, where they tell us what we want, and what will make us happy, fucken hell people can you for once fucken take a look at your life and ask yourself what you really really want, will that TV make you happy, will deodorant really get you a partner, and women I guarantee your hair colour or lipstick has nothing to do with finding a partner, the system has turned us into consumers of crap we don’t need, how much shit in your home do you even need, go on take a fucken look around and see how much time you have spent working to pay for things you don’t even use, don’t even need, and shit that wont make you any more happier than playing in the dirt and at least that is free, the best things in life are free, FOR FUCK SAKE PEOPLE HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN, what are you doing with your life that you need to work for so long, or so hard, please for once in your life take a moment and listen to your heart and ask yourself what it is you want, and I want to know what are you waiting for, why do so many people have to come so close to death to really start living, maybe if I put everybody in a life and death situation, where they have lost all control, they might wake up, now that would be a fucken TV show that I might actually watch, people finally realizing what life is about and not what NIKE, COCO COLA, LEVIS, Lancôme, or some pop star tells us, what life is about, the closer you get to death the more you will know life
Saturday, April 01, 2006
MOVING ON, WHY CANT YOU
Heading down the highway
Trying to escape from a place
Could never call home again and
I got graceland blaring out of my stereo
For the first time I feel free
Taking in that deep breathe that releases my soul
Letting go of all of my sorrow
The music makes me feel like running,
Makes me feel like dancing and singing
But I’m in no hurry to nowhere and
I never, I never ever wanna loose your heart
But I wanna know what it’s going to be like
Going down that road that has no end
What’s it like traveling with no baggage
With nothing holding you back but your dreams
As the wind begins to pick up blowing through me
Clearing away all the cobwebs and stale air of my past
The only way forward for me now is to forgive
And just move, just keep moving
Nothing past is going to control me anymore,
I don’t understand why you cant do the same,
I can see the pain in your voice and feel the tension in your face,
But you seem so determined to hold on,
You just keep holding on, cant you see there’s no point,
Foraging on the past will make you ill,
You are in charge of your own happiness no matter what you think
Trying to escape from a place
Could never call home again and
I got graceland blaring out of my stereo
For the first time I feel free
Taking in that deep breathe that releases my soul
Letting go of all of my sorrow
The music makes me feel like running,
Makes me feel like dancing and singing
But I’m in no hurry to nowhere and
I never, I never ever wanna loose your heart
But I wanna know what it’s going to be like
Going down that road that has no end
What’s it like traveling with no baggage
With nothing holding you back but your dreams
As the wind begins to pick up blowing through me
Clearing away all the cobwebs and stale air of my past
The only way forward for me now is to forgive
And just move, just keep moving
Nothing past is going to control me anymore,
I don’t understand why you cant do the same,
I can see the pain in your voice and feel the tension in your face,
But you seem so determined to hold on,
You just keep holding on, cant you see there’s no point,
Foraging on the past will make you ill,
You are in charge of your own happiness no matter what you think
RISE UP PEOPLE, RISE UP
"All mankind is divided into three classes; those that are immovable, those that are moveable, and those that move." Arab proverb.
I’m begging all ya’ll to rise, rise up and be counted,
Otherwise you will be washed away and them never ousted,
All they do is talk,
Make you work and walk,
But ya’ll still believe, ya’ll still believe,
Bringing me to tears, bringing me to tears.
Spend our money is all I see them do,
Don’t even know the pain they put you thru,
Yet most don’t even understand,
I’m begging all ya’ll to rise, rise up and be counted,
Otherwise you will be washed away and them never ousted,
All they do is talk,
Make you work and walk,
But ya’ll still believe, ya’ll still believe,
Bringing me to tears, bringing me to tears.
Spend our money is all I see them do,
Don’t even know the pain they put you thru,
Yet most don’t even understand,
They've cut off your feet and hands,
But ya’ll still believe, ya’ll still believe,
Bringing me to tears, bringing me to tears.
Why can’t you see that there cheating you all?
They don’t care how much food you have they just stall,
As long as they’re deep deep pockets are full,
They want you to keep up the pull,
But ya’ll still believe, ya’ll still believe,
Bringing me to tears, bringing me to tears.
Blinded for so long you can’t remember,
So long kept in a slumber,
Forgotten what you are supposed to be doing?
Black is white, we’ve stopped growing,
But ya’ll still believe, ya’ll still believe,
Bringing me to tears, bringing me to tears.
Fight the power and rise up,
Your souls have withered into there coffee cups,
They should be running for the hills,
Explaining the amount of kills,
But ya’ll still believe, ya’ll still believe,
Bringing me to tears, bringing me to tears.
They’ve forgotten their roles,
Throwing rules round quick with there flagpoles,
They think they own you,
And will till you see the view,
But ya’ll still believe, ya’ll still believe,
Bringing me to tears, bringing me to tears.
But ya’ll still believe, ya’ll still believe,
Bringing me to tears, bringing me to tears.
Why can’t you see that there cheating you all?
They don’t care how much food you have they just stall,
As long as they’re deep deep pockets are full,
They want you to keep up the pull,
But ya’ll still believe, ya’ll still believe,
Bringing me to tears, bringing me to tears.
Blinded for so long you can’t remember,
So long kept in a slumber,
Forgotten what you are supposed to be doing?
Black is white, we’ve stopped growing,
But ya’ll still believe, ya’ll still believe,
Bringing me to tears, bringing me to tears.
Fight the power and rise up,
Your souls have withered into there coffee cups,
They should be running for the hills,
Explaining the amount of kills,
But ya’ll still believe, ya’ll still believe,
Bringing me to tears, bringing me to tears.
They’ve forgotten their roles,
Throwing rules round quick with there flagpoles,
They think they own you,
And will till you see the view,
But ya’ll still believe, ya’ll still believe,
Bringing me to tears, bringing me to tears.
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