Wednesday, June 28, 2006

LOVE

Its a real shame that most people dont even know what love is, and even more of a shame that most people never experince it, real love is not a spare of the moment emotion, it is not stagnet, in fact it must grow to exist, love is not dormant and for two people to grow old together love must change as people change, there is only one LOVE, love does not know sex, hate, age, colour, religion, money, gold, fame, all it know is the truth and love itself, it doesnt know fear, nor hinderance, the only that stops people from experinceing love is their own minds, which are constantly craving conflict and attention, most people say they want love and yet they are unaware of what it is, and how to maintain it, love is the only emotion in the universe that can save us, and it can only survive throu honesty, compassion and communication, to know pure love for someone, is to know love for all beings, ants to elephants, if man wasnt so stupid and arrogant, there would be no need for guns or makeup, because for one beauty is not what one can SEE, but what one can FEEL, and guns are for children who run around their rooms making loud noises and screaming at each other.
THIS IS A PRAYER FOR THE HUMAN RACE,
EVOLVE NOW OR DIE,
LOVE EACH AND ALL BEINGS OR DIE,
GIVE WHAT YOU HAVE TO THOSE WHO NEED IT, OR DIE,
SEE BEAUTY NOT IN A FACE, BUT IN SOMES HEART, OR DIE,
THIS IS NOT MEANT AS A THREAT, BUT OUR IMMINENT FUTURE, IF WE DO NOT LISTEN TO THE ENLIGHTENED BEINGS OF OUR PAST, OUR FUTURE WILL BE SHORT.....
MAY ALL BEINGS BE HAPPY,
MAY ALL BEINGS BE HEALED AND WHOLE,



MAY THERE BE PEACE IN THIS WORLD AND THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE

Monday, June 26, 2006

OH TO BE A CHILD

oh to be a child again in heaven one minute then hell, and then back to heaven, oh so simple, so easy and so so much more intelligent than adults who hang on to every emotion like its going to be their last, as some sort of definition of their being what a load of shit, if your angry than be angry for that moment because thats all it deserves dont let your emotions rule your heart and mind, and dont let it influence your life so that you end up doing something you will regret, or for just keeping up appearances so every body thinks your cool, or to make some one else feel bad because you feel like shit...............grow up and realize your emotions are yours alone, so dont blame others for your own unhappiness or shity life, because there is only one person you can blame, and dont go trying to bring others down because you feel lost and confused.......


Friday, June 23, 2006

OH HOW TIRED THEE

i'm so tried and when i'm tired i get grumpy, and when i get grumpy i can go 2 ways, sleep, or my prefered option, thou not always available, and the other option is to get upset, bitchy, and whinge, whinge, whinge, and it took me a long time to realise that, and infact it took an ex-girlfriend to bring it to my attention, which of course i denied at first, until the next time i was tired and realized that was i grumpy, but now i move on to the whinging, i have a really sore tooth, and its becoming very annoying, theres nothing like pain to bring your awareness back to the body, and what a fine way it is, am i doomed to be tired for the rest of my life, is that my punishment,


Monday, June 19, 2006

HA HA HA HA HA HA SO LITTLE TIME SO MUCH TO BLOG

What would you do first if you are in a situation like:
The baby is crying.
Clothes have spread out and it has started raining.
Water is flowing from the tap.
Doorbell is ringing.
Phone bell is ringing.

Think about what you will do first then what second and so on…above all be honest!! Scroll down to see the explanation.


Each action reflects your priorities that you have set in your life. Take a look at the following table to see which priority corresponds to which action.
Action Priority
Attend the phone Career and job
See who is at the door Friends and relatives
Pick up the clothes Sex
Attend the baby Family
Close the tap Wealth

For example if the first thing that you did was to answer the phone then your biggest priority in life would be your career and job. Similarly if the fourth thing that you did was to attend to the baby then your fourth priority would be your family.
(mine was the baby)

This is a real test given by the human relations department at many of the major corporations today. It's only 10 simple questions, so... Grab a pencil andpaper, keeping track of your answers.

1. When do you feel your best?
a. in the morning
b. during the afternoon & early evening
c. late at night
2. You usually walk
a. fairly fast, with long steps
b. fairly fast, with short, quick steps
c. less fast head up, looking the world in the face
d. less fast, head downe. very slowly
3. When talking to people you
a. stand with your arms folded
b. have your hands clasped
c. have one or both your hands on your hips
d. touch or push the person to whom you are talking
e. play with your ear, touch your chin, or smoothyour hair
4. When relaxing, you sit with
a. your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side
b. your legs crossed
c. your legs stretched out or straight
d. one leg curled under you
5. When something really amuses you, you react with
a. a big, appreciative laugh
b. a laugh, but not a loud one
c. a quiet chuckled. a sheepish smile
6. When you go to a party or social gathering you
a. make a loud entrance so everyone notices you
b. make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know
c. make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed
7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're interrupted. Do you..
a. welcome the break
b. feel extremely irritated
c. vary between these two extremes
8. Which of the following colors do you like most?
a. red or orange
b. black
c. yellow or light blue
d. green
e. dark blue or purple
f. white
g. brown or gray
9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep, you lie
a. stretched out on your back
b. stretched out face down on your stomach
c. on your side, slightly curled
d. with your head on one arm
e. with your head under the covers
10. You often dream that you are
a. falling
b. fighting or struggling
c. searching for something or somebody
d. flying or floating
e. you usually have dreamless sleep
f. your dreams are always pleasant



POINTS:
1. a.2 b.4 c.6
2. a. 6 b. 4 c. 7 d. 2 e. 1
3. a. 4 b. 2 c. 5 d. 7 e. 6
4. a. 4 b. 6 c. 2 d. 1
5. a. 6 b. 4 c. 3 d. 5 e. 2
6. a. 6 b. 4 c. 2
7. a. 6 b. 2 c. 4
8. a. 6 b. 7 c. 5 d. 4 e. 3 f. 2 g. 1
9. a. 7 b. 6 c. 4 d. 2 e. 1
10. a. 4 b. 2 c. 3 d. 5 e. 6 f. 1
Now add up the total number of points.
OVER 60 POINTS: Others see you as someone they should "handle with care" You're seen as vain, self-centered, and who is extremely dominant. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you.
51 TO 60 POINTS: Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a naturalleader, who's quick to make decisions, though notalways the right ones. They see you as bold andadventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.
1 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively,charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting;someone who's constantly in the center of attention,but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.
31 TO 40 POINTS: Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest...Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it if that trust is ever broken.
21 TO 30 POINTS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature.
UNDER 21 POINTS: People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make the decisions & who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or anything. They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. Some people think you're boring. Only those who know you well know that you aren't.

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Picture yourself in a forest. You don't need a great imagination, what did you see the second the word 'forest' was mentioned? Answer as best as you can.
Q: Is the Forest you see Dark or Light?
Please select your answer from one of these options
a) I see myself in a forest in daylight.
b) I see myself in a forest at night.
c) I see myself in a forest at dusk or dawn
Q: Did you see a path?
Please select your answer from one of these options
a) Yes
b) NoThe Cup
Now we ask you to walk through the forest.
Q: You see a cup. What does it look like?
Select your answer.
What do you see?
Choose from one of these options
a) I've seen a cup that looks valuable to me.
b) I've seen a cup that doesn't look valuable to me.
Q: What do you do with it?
What do you do?
Choose from one of these options:
a) I leave it alone.
b) I pick it up & put it down.
c) I use it & then leave it behind.
d) I pick it up & take it with me.
The Water
You continue on your walk through the forest. You see water.
Q: What does it look like?
What's this water like?
Choose the closest option:
a) I see a puddle.
b) I see a pond.
c) I see a stream.
d) I see a river.
e) I see a lake.
f) I see an ocean.
Q: Is the water you see moving?
Is it moving?
Choose the closest option:
a) Yes (fast).
b) Yes (slow).
c) No (it's still).
d) No (it's stagnant).
Q: How deep is this water?
How deep?
Choose the closest option:
a) It's shallow.
b) I can stand up in it.
c) I can't stand up in it.
d) It's extremely deep.
Q: You need to cross the water?
How do you do it?
I crossed it like this?
Choose the closest option:
a) I step over, wade through or swim.
b) I walk round.
c) I use a bridge.
d) I use a boat or a ship.
The Bear
You continue on your walk through the forest.
You see a bear.
Q: Describe it?
What sort of bear?
Choose from one of these options:
a) I saw a cute teddy.
b) I saw a real one.
Q: What's your bear doing?
Choose the closest option.
What's you bear up to?
Choose the closest option:
a) My bear hasn't seen me.
b) My bear's seen me, he's doing cute 'bear type' things.
c) My bear's seen me, but is minding his own business.
d) My bear's seen me, & he's looking threatening.
e) None of them... he's coming right at me!
Q: You need to move on.
How do get around the bear?
What do you do?
Choose the closest option:
a) I don't. Actually, he's cute, I'm seriously considering adoption.
b) I ignore him & walk on.
c) I get out of there before he sees me.
d) I run up a tree or hide.
e) I stand & fight. I win.
f) I stand & fight. I suffer a slight wound.
g) None of these options is close.
The Beach
You continue walking.
You reach a beach. Picture it.
Q: How many people do you see?
Are there people?
Choose the closest option:
a) Hundreds, maybe thousands.
b) 20-100 people.
c) One or two.
d) None.
Q: How far are the nearest people?
Choose the closest option:
a) Close enough to talk to.
b) Not close enough to talk to.
c) Way off in the distance or the beach is deserted.
The Forest is your 'life' & how you see it. If you selected a forest in daylight this would strongly suggest you are generally very happy. The more light your see in the forest the more content you're likely to be with your life. If you selected a forest at night, it suggests there are some major things in your life that you'd like to change or are dissatisfied with and that you're likely to be under stress for some reason. If you selected a forest at dusk or dawn this would suggest something in between, that there are one or two things in your life that you'd like to change.If you saw a path in the forest you're not yet settled into your life as it is. Younger people usually see a path. Why is this? The path is symbolic of where you're going. People still finding their way in life are more likely to see a path. Those more settled in their direction or place in life (usually older people) are less likely to see a path.
Wealth
The cup is symbolic of 'Wealth" and your approach to it. The question gave you the chance to see any sort of cup. A tea cup, a sporting trophy, a tin cup, even a steaming cup of coffee! This question gave you the opportunity to reward yourself. If said you saw a cup that appeared valuable then you rewarded yourself with something of value to you. If you didn't see a valuable cup then you didn't give yourself a reward when the opportunity arose.
If you left the cup alone you were given the chance to take a reward but left it behind you. Either wealth has no real value to you or 'Wealth' is something you think you've got to work for.
If you picked the cup up and then put it down again you were given the chance to take a reward and then you found an immediate use for the cup and used it there & then. Many people see a cup of tea or coffee & drink it. Did you do something similar? You left the chance for reward behind you & found a practical use for the cup. You took a 'here & now' approach to the reward.
If you used the cup but then left it behind it means that you were given the chance to take a reward, you were curious enough to pick the cup up, but left it behind you. Either wealth has no real value to you or 'Wealth' is something you think you've got to work for.
If you took the cup with you then you probably saw a cup that was in some way valuable to you. You saw the chance to quickly reward yourself with easy pickings & you took it.
= Sex
This is the one you've been waiting for. Water is symbolic of SEX for everyone, even more so for women. The depth and speed of the water you see is indicative of your attitude, appetite & approach to SEX.The speed at which you see water moving is an indicator of you appetite for sex. But, not necessarily your need. The slower the water, the lower your appetite. The faster the water, the greater your appetite.The depth of the water is an indicator of how you see & what you want from sex. If you saw shallow water then you are able to reach fulfillment from deep & intense lovemaking. But you enjoy a 'quickie' just as much. In fact it's probably a preference. If you saw fast moving water too, 'little & often' is for you. If you saw deep waters then your love for the 'deep & intense' doesn't mean you cannot enjoy the 'quickie', it's just not a preference. You get true fulfillment from deeper & more intense lovemaking. For you, still waters run deep. The ease with which you cross the water is an indicator of your attitude & approach to sex. The more easily you crossed the water, the more comfortable or liberal you're likely to be in your approach to sex.
= Stress & Problems:
How you deal with themThe bear is symbolic of problems & how you deal with them. The question gave you the chance to see a problem. If you saw a Teddy-Bear or Winnie-the-Pooh then in relative terms your life is stress free & when given a problem you don't see one. You're pretty happy with life too.
If you saw a real bear you were given the chance to see a problem. People under routine-stress will see large & very dangerous bears.
Equally a bear you're ignoring or was ignoring you, is indicative of how you see stress & problems when they're presented to you.If the bear hasn't see you or has seen you but is doing cute 'bear type' things then you don't have many real problems in your life. You're not under everyday stress or worry. Given the chance to see a problem, you didn't see one. No bad thing.
If the bear has seen you but is minding his own business then whilst you have the usual problems in your life, you're not under unhealthy levels of stress or worry.
If the bear has seen you and is looking threatening you need a holiday! You're under high levels of stress or worry. This could be unhealthy.

How you get round the bear is indicative of how you deal with problems & how you resolve them. If you answered that you were considering adoption then your approach is very different to other people's. Unfortunately for them, most people are under much more stress than you.
= How you relate to people
The beach is symbolic of how you relate to people around you. How many people you pictured on the beach relates directly to the number of people you want around you. A truly socially gregarious person is most comfortable in the company of a large number of people, and seeks the audience (this personality type sees a beach packed with people). At the opposite end of the scale, those people that see a deserted beach are happy with their own company. They're very happy to spend long periods on their own where others would feel lonely.
If you saw hundreds then you're quite a social animal, a person that's very comfortable in a crowded pub, club or bar. You may even seek them out. You may like an audience. Where're you going toni or two people then you're a person who wouldn't want to spend a whole lot of time in crowded pubs, clubs or bars. You prefer talking to one or two people rather than a group. You can be a social animal, but you're often content with your own company. The vast majority of people see a beach with one or two people on it.
If you didn't see any people then you're a person least comfortable in a crowded pub, club or bar. You may even avoid them. You've the potential to be a social animal, but you wouldn't get lonely stranded on a desert island. You're content for long periods of time with your own company.Where you see people on the beach is symbolic of how you relate to people around you. If you saw people close enough to talk to then this suggests you want contact with other people most of the time.
If you saw people that weren't close enough to talk to then this suggests you don't need contact with other people all of the time, but like to know that someone is there for you.
If you saw people in the distance then you don't need contact with other people all of the time. You're happy with you own company.
Pick your favorite of the ice cream flavors listed below and find out what it says about your personality.
1. Vanilla
2. Chocolate
3. Butter pecan
4. Banana
5. Strawberry
6. Chocolate chip




Analysis

If you like vanilla, you are colorful, impulsive, a risk taker who sets high goals and has high expectations of yourself. You also enjoy close family relationships. Gregarious, lives a hectic life. Easily suggestible, expressive, idealistic; a private person.(Prototype lovelorn housewife.)

If you like chocolate, you are lively, creative, dramatic, charming, enthusiastic and the life of the party. Chocolate fans enjoy being at the center of attention and can become bored with the usual routine. Seductive, well-dressed, extroverted, easily influenced, a follower, intuitive, enjoys intimate relationships.(Prototype: feminine woman, macho man.)

If you like butter pecan, you are orderly, perfectionist, careful, detail-oriented, conscientious, ethical and fiscally conservative. You are also competitive, aggressive in sports and the take-charge type of personality.(Prototype: executive, secretary.)

If you like banana, you are easy going, well adjusted, generous, honest and empathetic.(Prototype: the perfect husband, wife, parent or child.)

If you like strawberry, you are shy, yet emotionally robust, skeptical, detail-oriented, opinionated, introverted and self critical. Easily made to feel guilty; cranky, pessimistic, low self-esteem.(Prototype: bureaucrat, journalist.)

If you like chocolate chip, you are generous, competitive and accomplished. You are charming in social situations, ambitious and competent. A visionary, a conqueror, enjoys being catered to, a go-getter, intolerant of defeat.(Prototype: Industry leaders, voted most likely to succeed in school.)
Compatibility Cart

The flavorology research also compiled a compatibility chart for ice cream lovers. If your favorite flavor is:
Vanilla - you are most likely to be compatible with someone whose favorite flavor is vanilla.
Chocolate - compatible with butter pecan or chocolate chip.
Butter pecan - compatible with butter pecan, chocolate and chocolate chip.
Banana - compatible with all flavors.
Strawberry - compatible with chocolate chip.
Chocolate chip - compatible with butter pecan or chocolate.
Imagine yourself in a forest or a jungle now.....
1) What is the first animal you see?
2) What is the second animal you see?

Imagine now there is a hut in front of you....
3) Do you :
a) Bypass it
b) Knock before going in
c) Rush in.

Now imagine yourself in the hut....
4) There are 20 candles in it, how many will you light up?
5) What is the shape of the table that you think is in the hut?Is it square or round?
6) How many chairs do you see around the table?
7) There is also a jug in this hut. What do you think the material of this jug is?
8) State the amount of water in it?
a) no water
b) 1/2 full
c) 3/4 full
d) totally full.

Now imagine that you are out of the hut...
9) You have reach a beautiful waterfall. How fast do you think is the speed of the waterfall? (1-9) (1 is the slowest and 9 is the fastest)
10) How many swans are there that you see near the waterfall?
11) Now you have reach the river bank and your destination is just opposite. How do you go over?
a) jump into the river and swim across.
b) find another way to cross it.

12) What are the first words that you will say when you get over?

Finally....
13) Give 3 words to describe the sky.
14) And give 3 words to describe the sea.



Analysis
1) This question symbolizes the "reflection of your life".
2) This question symbolizes the "character of your life partner".
3) a) bypass means "not ready for relationships"
b) knock before going in means "ready for relationships"
c) Rush in means "you are desperate"
4) This question means "your generosity....the more you light up, the more generous you are"
5) If you have a square table this means that you are "stubborn", if you have a round table this means that you are "flexible"
6) This actually shows your "hospitality". The more the better!
7) Depends on what you say, this refers to the "material of your heart"
8) This refers to the "amount of love that you will give to your partner"
9) Speed actually refers to your "sex drive"
10) The number of swans, refer to the "number of best friends you have"
11) a) This means "that you act without thinking"
b) This means "that you think before you act"
12) This refers to the "first words you will say on your wedding night"
13) This 3 words describe "your point of view to love"
14) This 3 words describe "the sounds or kind of love-making you will have"

Love Test - Imagine that are walking to your boyfriend/girlfriend's house...
Get answers to your questions on love with this short quiz!

You are walking to your boyfriend/girlfriend's house.
There are two roads to get there.
One is a straight path which takes you there quickly, but is very plain and boring.
The other is curvy and full of wonderful sights on the way, but takes quite a while to reach your loved one's house.
WHICH PATH DO YOU CHOOSE?
Short or long?
On the way, you see two rose bushes.
One is full of white roses. One is full of red roses.
You decide to pick 20 roses for your boyfriend/girlfriend.
WHAT COLOR COMBINATION DO YOU CHOOSE?
(Any combination including all one color is fine.)

You finally get to your boyfriend/girlfriend's house.
You ring the bell and the maid answers.
You can ask the maid to please get your loved one, or you may go get them yourself.
WHICH ACTION DO YOU TAKE?
Ask the maid or do it yourself?
Now, you go up to your girlfriend/boyfriends room.
No one is there.
You can leave the roses by the windowsill, or on the bed.
WHERE DO YOU PUT THE ROSES?
Bed or window?
Later, its time for bed. You and your loved one go to sleep, in separate rooms.
You wake up in the morning, and go to your boyfriend/girlfriend's room to check up on him/her. You enter the room:
IS HE/SHE AWAKE OR SLEEPING?
It's time to go home now, and you start to head back.
You can take either road home now:
The plain, boring one thats gets you home fast;
or the curvy, sight-filled road that you can just casually take your time with.
WHICH ROAD DO YOU CHOOSE?Short or long?

Analysis

Which road do you choose to take to your love's house?
The roads represent your attitude towards falling in love. If you chose the short one, you fall in love quickly and easily.If you chose the long one, you take your time and do not fall in love easily.
What combination of roses do you choose to give your love?
The number of red roses represent how much you expect to give in a relationship. The number of white roses represent how much you expect in a relationship. Therefore, if a person chose all red with one white, he/she gives 90% in the relationship but expects to receive only 10% back.
Do you ask the maid to get your love, or do you do it yourself?
This question shows your attitude in handling relationship problems. If you asked the maid to get your loved one, then you may beat around the bush, maybe asking a third party to intervene. Avoidance of problems runs high.If you went and got your loved one yourself, then you are pretty direct. If there is a problem, you confront it and deal with it. You want to work it out right away.

Where do you put the roses?
On the windowsill or on the bed?
The placement of the roses indictate how often you'd like to see your boyfriend/girlfriend. Placing the roses on the bed means you need lots of reassurance in the relationship, and you'd want to see your loved one every day, if possible.Placing the roses by the window show that you don't expect or need to see your loved one that often; seeing them just once in a while is OK.
Do you find your love asleep or awake?Finding your boyfriend/ girlfriend asleep: You accept your loved one the way they are.Finding them awake: You expect him/her to change for you.
Which road do you choose to go home?The short and long roads now represent how long you stay in love. If you chose the short one, you fall out of love easily.If you chose the long one, you tend to stay in love for a long time.





DU YOU THINK THEY THINK ABOUT THEY ARE THINKING

Do parents ever think about how each moment with their child or children, affects each individuals life down the road, or do they just wake up one day and blame society, tv or music for having a "difficult" child, and sit dumbfounded and wonder why, because really they should already know if they are awake enough, and honest, because each interaction is a stamp on there soul/mind/heart, and its necessary for a parent to be consistant, fair, humble, understanding, honest, listen, and treat children as human beings of equal status, and not as slaves or ones that must pay homage to their elders just because they are elders, any being regardless of age, status wealth, needs to earn respect everyday, through right action, and speech, though a respect for all beings should be obvious, because we are all children till the day we die,yet many forget because of their age, wealth or status that they to once had to wear nappies, as they urniated and defecated in their own pants once, and had to be washed and bathed, you are no better than because you are old and i am no beter than you because i am young, the moment of truth is the present moment and not at our death, our death is just the begining, soon you will see that we all must suffer for our sins, our actions, and our thoughts, dont be fooled by money or what you think you have obtaind, your soul is still dirty whether you are a king or a president, or a street sweeper, and now our children are paying for our constant bickering, and pleading ignorance is no longer an excuse for trying to put our selves above the past sweepers and kings, soon this world will be over taken by money hungry, thirsty vultures as the cockroachs walk all over us, and we stand alone trying to figure out where we went wrong, look in the mirror and you will see the answer, our ego's are cashing in everything it can get its greedy litle hands on, yet we are all still striving for those new shiny gadgets, and plates and glasses that sit on our shelves for no other reason than to look and imporess those down the street who cant afford the extra 2 dollars to buy a shiny silver cup from a second hanbd store that some one else already has thrown away because they saved an extra dollar and spent 3 dollars so they could buy a shiny silver thing to impress the other person who could only spend 2 dollars, and its all going around in a circle right to the damn top of the shit pile, yet people still go to the 9-5 job because they think they have to because they have been duped by governments and advertising companies who have been portraying some kind of lifestyle that they wont everyone to aim for like the carrot dangling from the cart, that they will never reach but keep the ones on top , on top and they money flowing so wake up, look in the mirror and say what are you doing with your life, is it worth living are you just another germ, a virus upon this land, or are trying to make a difference, and help the zombies wake fropm their sleep, so they can live life, why do you need so many shoes how many can you wear at one time, why do you need so many tv's, why do you need to fill your house with crap that you will one day throw away any way, it would be far better to save your and actuially do something with rather than spend it on booze and cigaretes, which are killing you thou if thats the life you wish to lead, then dont wake from your own igtnorance because there is a world of suffering out there you will not be able to handle, love you all and love one another



Thursday, June 15, 2006

WHY DOESNT SOMEONE STOP ME

Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking
You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal.You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk.
You should major in:
PhilosophyMusicTheologyArtHistoryForeign language
What Should You Major In?

Your World View

You are a fairly broadminded romantic and reasonably content. You value kindness and try to live by your ideals. You have strong need for security, which may be either emotional or material.
You respect truth and are flexible. You like people, and they can readily make friends with you. You are not very adventurous, but this does not bother you.
What Is Your World View?
You Have a Melancholic Temperament
Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything.You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life.You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you.
Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace.You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life.Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times.
At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you.You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.
What Temperment Are You?
Your Inner Child Is Naughty
Like a child, you tend to discount social rules.It's just too much fun to break the rules!You love trouble - and it seems that trouble loves you.And no matter what, you refuse to grow up!
How Is Your Inner Child?

NOT ANOTHER BOX

Your Blogging Type is Artistic and Passionate

You see your blog as the ultimate personal expression - and work hard to make it great.
One moment you may be working on a new dramatic design for your blog...
And the next, you're passionately writing about your pet causes.
Your blog is very important - and you're careful about who you share it with.

there always seems to be another box for people to put you in, but i just CANT HELP MY SELF WHY OH WHY, burns all the boxs down, down, down, hurry before its to late.





SO MANY PROBLEMS

There isnt a country, town, governemnet, official, teacher, institution, or individual that doesnt have problems, thou everybody and every organisational body has a solution for every problem out there, some countries are poorer than others, some countries are happier than others, some people are energetic, some are lazy, some governments are corrput and some governments are even more corrupt, if only we could plug into a matrix and download all the solutions there are and we could be perfect, but then if we were all perfect, perfection would cease to exist, and the first person to not be perfect would in effect become perfect, if only it was that easy to plug into a computer and download everything you ever wanted to know, would you want to know everything, is it possible, obviously its not today but maybe in another millions years (cross our fingers, i doubt human life will last another 1000 years), for even today we would be lucky to even know 1% of what there is to know, and even less of a percentage for understanding, would knowing everything solve all of our problems, or are there only a couple of things that we need to know, or is it someones joke that every single individual has one significant peice of information that could solve all of our problems, if only we could all talk together face to face, heart to heart, soul to soul, if only we could all see that our bodies are not us, but just a bag of chemicals, that come in different flavours, chocolate, vanilla, some with cherries on top and some with lollies, if we could seperate our own soul from the body and see that it is mostly water, and no different to anybody, any life on this planet, how could you then get angry at someone when you know they are just as weak and scared as you are, what living being wants to suffer, what living being wants happiness, who would rather stay at home with their family, than travel to another country that doesnt even speak your own language hold a gun in front of their face and say "it's for your own good", does that really make sense to anyone else, how can you go around telling people how to live, and attempt to fix all their problems with solutions from a completely different mind and train of thought, and assume that thats what they want, the hair on my body is the same as yours, my bones are made of the same chemicals as yours, and my rice comes from the same place as yours, we are all just drops from the same cloud, flying through the same sky, landing in the same place, and then rising again back to the same cloud, why dont you face your fears and stop running from them so we all have a chance to face our own.


Wednesday, June 14, 2006

WHAT CAN WE DO WITH KIDS THAT DONT WANNA BE THERE

HOW can you reach the kids, that only want to play, that sit at the back of the class, and how can you reach each student when you have 50 in a class, and only fifty minutes a week, should i only go for 50% or 75%, or 90%, how could a teacher aim for anything less than 100%, but how do you "entertain" 50 kids all at the same time, when some get what you are doing, some are actually learning and some just arent even concentrating, it also doesnt help that i cant speak there language that well either, and how do we get all kids involved, do we have to bribe them, or decieve them in some way to make learning fun, will there always be kids that fall through the cracks, do we just accept that as part of their future, is it possible to catch them all.................


Thursday, June 08, 2006

SO SO TRUE QUITE SCARY ACTUALLY

You know you've been in Thailand for too long......
* if the footprints on the toilet seat are your own.
* you no longer wait in line, but go immediately to the head of the queue.
* you stop at the bottom of the escalator to plan your day.
* you habitually punch all the buttons as you leave the lift.
* it has become exciting to see if you can get on the lift before anybody can get off.
* you're willing to pay to use a toilet you wouldn't go to within a kilometer of at home.
* it is no longer surprising that the only decision made at a meeting is the time and venue for the next meeting.
* you rank the decision making abilities of your staff by how long it takes them to reply "up to you."
* you no longer wonder how someone making US$400 a month can drive a Mercedes.
* you accept the fact that you have to queue to get your number for the next queue.
* you have considered buying a motorcycle for the next family car.
* you accept without question the mechanic's analysis that the car is "broken" and that it will cost you a lot of money to get it "fixed."
* you are no longer surprised when you are passed while passing another vehicle.
* you find it saves time to stand and retrieve your cabin baggage while the plane is on final approach.
* you think the Proton and Kijang are a well-built, stylish cars.
* you regard running hand-in-hand with all your family as the best way to cross the highway.
* you love the challenge of avoiding meter-deep potholes at highway speeds.
* you are quite content to repeat your order six times in a restaurant that only has four items on the menu.
* you can shake your hands almost perfectly dry before wiping them on your pants, or you have your suits made with terrycloth pockets.
* a T-bone steak and rice sounds just fine.
* you believe everything you read in the local newspaper.
* you enjoy singing along with televised prayers and anthems.
* you regard traffic signals, stop signs and copy-watch peddlers with equal disdain.
* if you have developed an uncontrollable urge to follow people carrying small flags.
* nobody else can top your tales of exotic foods, or would want to.
* if, when listening to the pilot prove he can't speak English, you no longer wonder if he can understand the Air Traffic Controllers.
* you regard it as part of the adventure when the waiter exactly repeats your order and the cook makes something completely different.
* you have more knick-knacks than your grand-mother.
* you're not surprised that three men with a ladder show up to change a light bulb.
* you understood all the references above. ...
* you own more than one rice cooker (too many credit cards?)
* you think its normal to wait six days to get your drycleaning back or pay 50% surcharge for next day service
* you've seen every new Hollywood release at UA Queensway (before its been taken off)
* you no longer notice the subtitles
* taxi drivers understand you
* the people handing out free samples (tissues or sanitary pads) at the MTR actually offer you one
* the people handing out real estate or restaurant flyers written in Thai give you one
* you know what's on TV tonight and are prepared to watch it
* you use your mobile on the MTR
* you've considered buying ANYTHING lime green
* you think its normal to buy milk in a box with a use by date of Sept 99, or are prepared to drink a cappuccino made with it
* you no longer think you'll die if you eat the local seafood
* at banquets you try first and ask what it is second
* you no longer freak out when your doctor suggests a routine tuberculosis test
* (due to selective memory) you honestly believe you could return to the western world and live an hour from the city and/or survive without a maid
* You forget how to use a knife and Folk
*You cannot construct a sentence in your own language
*You believe "It's raining" is a valid excuse for being two hours late for an important meeting!
You consider it normal to put a couple of chinks of ice in a glass of beer
Your standards regarding "clean" food stalls have dropped drastically
When touching the top of your girlfriends head with the sole of your foot is no longer amusing.
*you don't miss toilet paper
*You hear Thais cutting down another race and listen to see why they may be right
*You show up at a buffet and can name all the foods in Thai
*You see footprints on the toilet seat and can name who they belong to
*You have figured out that touts exist because many Thais can't read thai
*You no longer cringe when taking a motorcycle taxi
*You avoid going to Pattaya not because of the amount of tourists, but because of certain girls *You can tell a taxi driver a faster way to get there
*You always remember to take off your socks before entering the bathroom Wayyy too long if.... *You go to work and expect to make a difference
*You're pre-planning materials to make your Katong for this year's festival
*You want to know how many golden balls of fire the "river dragon" sent up this year
*You have more than four digits in your post amount on ajarn
*someone says "cool" and you think of the weather
*You feel uneasy looking at playing cards
*You wonder why and how westerners use toilet paper
*You hear thr word "bro" and think Pee or nung
*You don't notice the movie just read the subtitles
You let your kids watch the 7pm show on channel 7 so you have an hour of peace and quiet
*You wish you could vote in the next election or the next or the next.
sleeping on a mat feels like sleeping on a bed
You wonder why, back home, buses can't just stop anywhere pick up people.
you don't stop at red lights - instead you hang a left, U-turn and hang another left .




Monday, June 05, 2006

I THINK THIS IS WHERE WEVE GONE WRONG

"I speak in your tongue, but it is in my language that i understand you" Edouard Glissant. this is the major issue with language whether you speak the same language or a different language, everyone has a different definition of happiness love hate anger saddness, so if i'm talkin to you about love how do i truley know that you understand what i'm saying if love for you means something completely different to what it means to mean, how are we supposed to communicate if you tell me one thing yet mean another, or i interpret into my own understanding, and this comes down to my next pont about children. they are so impresionable, how can anyone truley be their own person if their just made up of everybody else around them. Does that then not make us all just peices of each other, how can we be ourselves if we already have our society and parents imprinted upon us from the day we are born, and if so how can any one anymore have an original thought, and last but not least, CAN A PARENT KNOW A DAY WITHOUT FEAR?

Thursday, June 01, 2006

HAPPINESS

what is happiness, is there one single definition that can account for all beings, is it just a want to be free from suffering, because i know that happiness for specific individuals varies as much as snowflakes floating throu the air, it also comes down to what people are prepared to accept as their position in the world some people are just happy working in a supermarket their whole life, and some people need so much more to be happy, is it a matter of being content with what you have, is it about not having a long enough attention span, do people get stuck in a safe warm place and become afraid to leave, is happiness, for some people living on the edge, or are they just addicted to adreneline, are some people just happy to be at home all day watching TV, while some people cant bare to be alone, and if so, why do governments and advertising companies keep telling us what will make us happy, or what will make us more appealling to a prospective partner, can happiness be bought, or does money just reduce the amount of suffering one will have to endure, is happiness just having options available, do children really know what happiness is, or does ones definition of happiness change, is happiness just the opposite of suffering, can one measure happiness, is settling for second best happiness, do people ever give up on it, do some people just enjoy suffering, are all beings after happiness or are they just after what they think will make them happy, and yet arent really sure what happiness is, is love happiness or suffering, or does it entail both, is love a part of happiness or is happiness a part of love.

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