I"LL BE BACK

never leave the one you love, for the first time I actually felt tall, at a recent b’day party where a few de la boys were, I can wait to be moving out, its been a long time coming, and will be good if I can get extra work, and save enough money, hopefully with the drug trials I will be cashed up.

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PATIENCE, PURPOSE, PLACE

i’m beginning to loose my grip on what I want for the long term, and am just trying to get where I want to get as quick as possible, maybe because after reading my book again, that its all empty anyway, and so what’s the point, do I rush in like fools, or do I wait, I know I will wait till mid April, but I don’t know if I want to, maybe I should go to somewhere else first close by if I can just for the experience cause I might not get it again, and then I can stay around for a while, I just don’t know what to do with my self, I think it would be better to go away again for a while and then comeback, and then go again somewhere else, but really does it matter, I shouldn’t be thinking so much about it now, I need patience this is my test now, this is my purpose now, and everything else will fall into place, I need to let go and just breathe,

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LET ME GO

I don’t know what else you want me to do,
I hope it hurts less and the pain fades
Just let me see it thru, I’ll be true,
I still cant look you in the face without these shades.
I never want to see the face again,
I new it was my shame
Let me in, wont you let me, my heart is yours for as long as you need,
You don’t need to bleed, to bleed for me anymore,
What’s the point, what are we fighting for,
When we fight no reason it breaks me down,
But when I see you thru the light in your gown,
Something within me cares for nothing more,
But to hold you and your child by loves shore

What more do you want me to do
What more do you want from me

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THE ABYSS

i’m being pulled into an abyss, I wish not to enter but can not peel away from the suction of its energy, I can also know no way out, what is happening, how come I never know what’s happening on the inside, what’s going today, has this always been there, why now, I just wish to be on my own, I don’t wanna talk to any one or really even see anyone, and I really miss my baby, is this it, is that all there is, or is there something else going on that I don’t see, I know I will not last a year here thou maybe I could if it was enough or there was a real need to, but maybe I can get out earlier, I hope, I need to figure a few things out first for a minimum and maximum time, for when I want and need to stay or leave.

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