Why I married her? She's perfect for me

If we arent the same we are the opposite, and this is one reason why I married her. We connect on so many levels, its really scary. Ive never thought of destiny before but so many things in our past have been the same. And so many problems I had in my life, her life experinces were able to help me in every way. Its as though both our lives were made to compliment each other, the ying and yang

of the universe bought us together. Every time she had a problem I was there to give her help and solutions. Now that I have problems in my life, she can help me in every way. This does not make sense in the universe, as if there is a god, and he made us for each other. This rainbow connection doesn't happen often or easily, but so many things have happened recently that almost everything has reversed.

Life throws a lot of shit at you. Beauty, money and brains can all disappear quickly. Someone who has seen the worst and survived; who can love you with all of her heart and raise wonderful children. That is someone I need to have by my side. You don't choose a wife for sunny days and cocktail parties. You chose one who will be there when the lights go out. And my lights have gone out recently and even when I hurt her, she never let me down once. Even when I was being stupid, and not listening to her and letting my ego control me, she never left my side. "Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down." - Oprah Winfrey

How is this possible? How is it that two lives started in different countries, different hemispheres, and different continents could come together after so many years, and compliment each other so perfectly? If I believed in god I would be in a church now on my knees thanking him for sending me an angel. It's almost enough for me to rethink my whole life, and everything I thought, believed and felt.

This is life-changing stuff, enough to make a person forget everything they once believed and change their lives. My wife, when I look into her eyes, all I see is love and peace. My heart swells beyond capacity when I think of you, and absolute terror when I think she will leave me. The devil can't create such fear in those he meets. Life with her is filled with love and beauty.

My darling wife has truly taught me the meaning of love. I had asked myself many times if I knew, but now my darling has taught me. I never knew how much my life lacked until I fell in love with you. You are my one true love, my wife, the reason I smile all the time, I am already rich with my wife's love. Her love keeps me in perpetual ecstasy and without fear or care. Together, our love will triumph over all challenges and obstacles, because of you my wife, I know that whatever happens we will win and get through it all. Loving you has been the easiest thing I've ever done as you enrich my life with profound happiness.

Every time I've been asked to choose, I've never had to think, YOU are always, and will always be the answer. I love you my wife beyond known words and sentiments, nothing I could say or write could come close to showing how I feel for you. Being away from you my heart is in constant anguish. I never knew loving you would change my life so much. Since I met you, I don't remember ever not having loved you, or needing you, I love you unconditionally and forever. Your love is kindness, respect, and real connection. As my wife, you give me these every day and like a plant kept in the dark you are my sunshine, my energy, my life.

True love takes more than a moment, it makes every day worth living and being with you has a reason. Thank you, my wife, for the lasting love you give, I cant thank you enough for staying. I know you could just leave and forget about everything we had and did together for the last few years. But Without your love, I have nothing. With you as my wife, I have everything. Can the power of love be defined? I look forward to discovering the answer with my wife by my side. But I'm starting to see how powerful it could be. I know I need to trust you more and follow you more. Love is in the moments, big and small. You my wife bring beauty and joy to them all. Love strengthens, encourages, and protects. Your love helps me be all I can be, my beautiful wife.

Real love keeps on growing stronger. As husband and wife/life partners, ours will never be broken. Our relationship stronger than any element or bond in the universe, no matter what happens, what you do, what you say, I will never stop loving you, I will never stop working for you, I will never stop trying to make you happy, and I will be with you through everything.

Lost in Thailand, waiting for my angel to return

Thinking about coming to Thailand? Thinking about teaching in Thailand? My time in Thailand has had its highs and lows, The days and nights are long without you, but my life would have been worse not having met you, even though there is a constant pain of depression in my chest that will not go away until i can hold you in my arms again.

I know this feeling of depression symptoms can vary for some but they can also be extremely frightening, I've been here before, it's just like when my mother left, maybe my heart is always meant to be broken because every time I give it away, I do something to ruin it all, and it gets broken again, so I'm just sitting here again, all alone, wondering why I keep trying, why I keep sharing my heart, sharing my life, keep crying, and giving everything I have. I know I can be a fool sometimes and lie about my feelings and try to not acknowledge them, or just brush them off as nothing. But now it's come to a point in my life that if I don't change I will never be happy, and I don't want to lose the one person that has tried to help me.

I need to start thinking about the future and being a better person and husband. It's difficult when you have a lot of free time though, I need to be like a shark and keep moving. I do know that when I'm suffering from clinical depression, I go into my world, and neglect those around me. This is not fair to anyone who stays near me, and I need to be stronger and better than this in the future.

Living in Thailand can be extremely isolating as a foreigner because outside of major cities, language can be a huge barrier. Also, many underestimate the heat, my god the heat in the hot season can be overbearing. Thailand can be heaven or hell for those wishing to teach in Thailand. The country is generally very beautiful, except for Bangkok, and the people are generally friendly and kind, except for Bangkok.

One of the reasons is ironic because there are a lot of bad foreigners running around not caring about the people or their customs. If you are thinking of travelling to Thailand, it would be good to do a short-term trip first for a few days, as it can be expensive and a major drain if you make a major decision to come for a year but leave within a week or so.

I just feel like cring all the time, sometimes is ok, but i cant be doing it all the time. Nothing feels right as you are far away you make everything better. Miss you, my gorgeous wife

My rock in the world, the one that keeps me alive.

I'll admit our road hasn't been easy, and mostly my fault, though the deepest cut was made by her. I can't blame her as a lot was my fault, but I never thought she would do such a thing to me. She's always been pretty near perfect helping me with everything in my life, and making it 1000% times better. She's not perfect, nor am I, and I'm willing to forgive a one-time digression, but I'm not sure how many others I could suffer through.

The worst part after the event is my mind and it travels faster than any transport in the country. If I could just learn to turn it off or stop as thoughts come up, it would be great so I dont think about it happening so much. But after everything is said and done, I'm willing to give her a chance, because I've never had such a connection with another person before in my life. She is the most important person in my life, and though sometimes I may neglect or fail to meet her needs, it has never once been for the lack of love or care I feel for her, just my own foolishness and ego getting in the way.

I'm willing to suffer through this universe just to be with her, even though we must both be separated at this moment to find work and start saving some money to have our family. There hasn't been a single moment since meeting here that I have even considered leaving her, or doing anything to her that might hurt her.

Not saying I'm an angel, there have been difficult situations in my life outside of our relationship that have affected my behaviour and she took it personally. That's my fault, I need to be more caring and respectful of her feelings and needs, even if I don't understand them.

Sometimes I know it can even be difficult to understand what you want or need at a particular second in your life. But it may have been because I took her words and translated them into how I was feeling, and then projected my feelings onto her, letting her down. Since I have been made aware of this in the previous weeks, I can promise that it won't happen again.

Love is never easy, long-term relationships aren't easy, however, it is easy to find short-term fun or happiness with other people, which can make us do hurtfull things. It's certainly not a road I ever plan on going down.

It's a love that is beyond words, language, race, culture and money, it's simply based on the fact that every time I see her face my heart fills with joy, and there's no other place in the world I would rather be than by her side, just the thought of losing her drives me mentally insane.

This I know to be true, and it can be easy to fall for puppy love, or that new relationship, or some new activity, but both people in a relationship need to be aware and careful of their feelings and their partners feelings. I can't blame her 100%, I'm also at fault and must change my ways so that I never lose the one person that I have truly loved in my life.

I promise that I will do all I can to make her happy with whatever I have to give, especially food, and my time, I think the two most important things to any real woman. She has become the reason I need to improve myself and to do better in the future, listen to her more, and try to understand how she feels not from how I think or feel, but how she is actually feeling.

Sometimes when we get hurt by the one we love our first reaction can be to try and hurt them back. This is detrimental to any relationship, and relationships shouldn't be about who wins, or who is smarter, but being sincere, listening to others' needs and wants, and trying to understand their feelings from their perspective and not our own.

It takes a lot of awareness to do this because often our egos are very quick to think and act. So for any relationship to last for a long time, it shouldnt be about winning, it should be about sharing and caring for what each thinks and feels.

There is no reason to beat you if I just end up losing you, then I have just won the battle but lost the war. Everything I do from now on will be to make sure you are happy and your needs are being met.

No relationship will survive if both people are always competing and trying to show who is the boss, or who is bigger, or who is smarter, these games may be fun early on but soon enough people will get hurt and the relationship will become bitter.

I've truly found the one person I want to be with forever, and no matter what happens, I will always love you, even when im being an idiot, or selfish, or just not listening. I will always eventually come back to love and try to change or do better in the future.

I want to be sure that when I leave this universe your face, your smile, and your eyes will be the last thing I see because if I can achieve this major feat, I know I will not have wasted my life, and my life had real purpose and that is to make you happy and I will know then that I have succeded in being the best person I could be for you.

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New city, New job

So I thought I might start doing this again after a few year's break. I've just had a major change in life, the loss of my job, which came unexpectedly, but then again I may have subconsciously wanted it to happen. After the lies and gossip, and everything else that came with being fired for actually being honest, that's how life is here. I've just found a new place to work, a new place to live, and a new chance to improve myself. To be honest it's scary, exciting, and bloody nerve-racking. All I can do now is try to take on what people say, change people's minds, and show that I'm not what everyone is thinking I am after the gossip bombshells.

I still don't understand where or why the lies came from, but i can't change that now. All I can do now is do what I've been doing for the last 17 years and show the new people who I really am. It's been a difficult time, and maybe in the past, I was too proud to think I could be wrong or doing a bad job. But I've come to realize that in this country it's not just about doing a good job. It's probably less important than the interpolitics or social system that exists here. Don't stand out or rock the boat, just smile and be kind, and that will get you further than being a good teacher. I've rarely had issues with teaching though, in the past, most of the issues I've had were with management and being too honest. I guess my ideas about corruption, treating students as equals, and not just passing every student aren't so popular here. This is going to be a very difficult time for me also since I very rarely stay alone, I'm always with my children and/or my wife.

It's certainly going to be an interesting adventure for me in a new city which is much smaller than the one I'm used to. But life goes on and stops for no one, so I must fight and prevail. #teaching #thailand #ESL #lifestyle #teachingthailand #livethelittlethings #behindthescenes #writerlife #creativewriting #wordporn #liveauthentic #travelblog #healthyfood #anxiety #bangkok #travel #travelthailand #art #photography #asia #beautiful #phuket #thai #amazingthailand #travelgram #thailandonly