sitting in the shop on my birthday drinking at 3 after another scare just relaxing and trying to be in the moment writing about the past and wondering what’s going to happen next nothing really to gain or loose but just live and do and carry on I am in such a conflict most of the time with myself and end up taking it out on someone else but I keep asking myself what about that there’s only a problem if there’s a solution I just don’t know what to do so I will do nothing and just wait soon this will pass and my only happiness which I can rely on is my own, and just be happy i’m alive and to suffer a little more with what ever I can I wish for nothing and need very little and my own judgement of the situation is what is bringing me down, so what can I do, I wish for simplicity and all I get is complexity, nothing has turned out how I thought it would, and everything just keeps going up and down, like a roller coaster in my head and heart, I just don’t know what to do anymore, it has not been easy, sometimes I just want to walk away, sometimes run, but then you get nowhere.
In the Garden of Solitude
T he stillness where shadows whisper, I wander the garden of my solitude, Amongst the withered petals of hope, Fear blooms like a nig...
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good days and bad, waves of emotions blending into each other, fueled by loneliness, caffeine, stress, worry and overthinking, trying to f...
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T he stillness where shadows whisper, I wander the garden of my solitude, Amongst the withered petals of hope, Fear blooms like a nig... -
There are so many addictions out there, but why??? I think primarily it has to do with peoples inability to enjoy the silence of the present...
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