DOUBT, WHAT DOUBT

can one ever get rid of doubt or is that an ever growing part of the mind as we age, for when we are young we never doubt anything, but maybe as we grow older and experience more we realise that there is no sure thing, and that really anything can happen and does, so maybe then as we get older we need to open our mind up to the possibility that more things will go wrong as we try to control everything, is that what doubt is, the fact that as we get older we try to control more and more what we cant, and deep down we know that, so why keep running, why keep trying to control everything. This week as been good, meeting min park, and getting some teaching organised, and realising how much better it has been not being with the parents, i’m free to do anything but doing nothing at all, that’s more appealing to me as I did what I wanted before any way, its just I copped the crap for it afterward but now there’s no one and the standards of living have changed, as in terms of what is to be expected, its going to be hot today, but at least it’s the last day of the week so I can relax tomorrow which is always my favourite, life at the moment is going along quite comfortably, not to many hassles and no dramas, just kicking back saving and working and a little bit of drinking, not the greatest for achieving but more of a platform to achieve at a latter date, like a seed ready to hatch or a bird ready to fly, first the prep work then sizing up the situation, which could be a little more than I had expected but that always seems to be the case for me so it will certainly be a challenge, hopefully the start of helping those who wouldn’t get the chance otherwise, and its not like something that I don’t know, I’ve been doing it for a while now,

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