FALLING

I’m falling faster than usual,

am I dreaming again have I died,
If I wake up will I see you lying by my side,
My heart just wont stop bleeding,

I should never have left you alone,
The pictures won’t heal the tears,

will you answer the phone,
No matter how much I breathe,

No matter how much I drink,
I want to just keep running,

and running and not think,
The distance between you and I,

has never been further I swear it’s a sin,
Hope is all I have and it’s running thin,
The next few months are going,

to feel like a million winters,
And it’s tearing my mind,

into a billion splinters,
I’m stuck in a place,

without you and it’s my own fault,
I was foolish in the past,

to keep the truth locked in a vault,
I know these tears wont change anything,

but I’ve got to let them out,
Now I’m paying the price, my life is in doubt,
What will take away this pain that know one can see,
Could you understand,

what I would give you to be with me,
Everyone I see seems to look just like you,

smell just like you, and walk just like you,
I just can’t escape your face even,

when I close my eyes its all in my view,
Down on my knees my hearts,

pounding so loud can you hear,
Nothing else matters when you’re near,
My whole body fills with pain,
I’m breaking down again,
I can’t even get up to walk,

and I haven’t eaten for days,
Each breath I take leaves me dazed,
To see your face again is all that will do,
Just to see you,

and tell you how much I love you.