MY OWN JAIL

All I can remember when I got back was that I never wanted to be here again, even after all I had been through, I still wanted to stay and now all I want to do is go back to where I felt like home, maybe it was because I was a farang but who knows I’ll find out soon.
What’s right and wrong is beyond heaven and earth and love is what binds all things together you can call it what you like god or energy but neither are in control, yet each have an individual path and none of them exist without emptiness which is necessary for the existence of all things, light cant travel, and love can not be expressed or received, if you are to believe in one thing in this world it is love, it must be love that is beyond ego and beyond any physical attraction it must be stripped of all labels like the bark of a tree, for all things are done in its name, but the problem arises because of the ego and it not being shared by all, cause so many don’t know what love truly is, its beyond religion, beyond borders, beyond sickness and health, beyond life and death, beyond government, beyond education, beyond this earth and its existed forever, and will go on, there are many paths to it and they all begin the day were born, some get distracted with work and some with money, some with fame and family, some fear and drugs, but one day all life will return back to where it came from all that is dark will become light and vice versa, there is nothing to fear because nothing is real except the love that binds all that exists, which has always been and always will be just because we have different labels for everything doesn’t mean its separate from our own being, the world, the universe and everything that exists must exist in a state of equilibrium for nature of man, love and hate cant exist for all that exists is in a state of duality, with out it, it cannot exist so when one side becomes stronger or weaker lighter or darker the opposite will step in to even out the other side, as in the ying and yang, for there to be love there must be hate for there to be peace there must be war, when one grows strong its opposite will take over, soon the rich will far out number the poor, thereby eliminating rich and poor.

Soon the sun will be gone and I’ll be alone again to dream and wonder what tomorrow will bring, I listen to the birds sing and they tell me of better times ahead, in trying to find what I cant see, but I know how it feels, I await like a bee and its flower, the rose and the rain, I need to find how to, make the pain disappear it seems that no matter what I hear I can not rest until I see and feel what I know is real I need to let go of my empty fears and doubts and care not to make tomorrow better but grow into the now, and set what I need to do, for tomorrow is not promised today, there is no point in only doing, what others say but to keep honest to your own self, destiny will see you through if only you don’t cheat and steal, there is more to this world that what one can see and understand but that doesn’t mean that happiness is far away its already inside of us if only you can understand a little of this plane you will never have to worry, everything will be alright in the end, as everything must come and go but is never lost if you love all that is for all that is, love no matter what it is you do like a piece of a puzzle or a brick in the wall each is as important as the last and as strong as the next.

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